Friday, December 31, 2004

moodless..

man.. today i reached school at like 8 am cos i din want to be late.. so waited like half an hour, den xiao xuan and ah pok came.. haha... i was like sleeping den they so noisy.. haha... so i like very tired ar... lazy to do anything...

so we kinda had to rehearse on our intro.. man.. practice soooo any times le.. so sian.. i today starting really no mood to go practice.. but have to settle the mic thingy... haiya dunnoe la.. i juz wasnt in the mood to do anything today... boring.. all i wanted to do is sleep!! these few days not sleeping well.. dunnoe what's wrong with me.. haiz...

den after finishing our stuff, i was like so happy can go home sleep!!!! haha... went home with joel.. finally he came for a meeting.. lol. so he was like on the phone and we were walking out to the bus stop. den 985 came. i was like "want to take or not!?" haha.. den he on the phone, den he like yes, no dunnoe, yes. haha.. dunnoe la.. i was very blur.. he kinda got up the bus without an objective.. din noe the bus goes to his house lol.. so he was like "thank goodness we went out together..." haha... cool young guy.. heard he broke up with his girl... i think both of them are like real sweet together.. especially the girl.. was her name grace? arh... hope things will turn up fine for both of them...

so reached home, played tony hawk, cos i traded my tomb raier with taufiq's tony hawk.. man... so fun.. stupid la.. i could not choose my games.. zzzzzzzz..... so i play den went to sleep.. slept like 4 hours.. haha.. wake up liaoz have to rush, bathe and all cos going dec's house for his mom's birthday... so cool.... was fun la... din bowl much there.. juz see them... touch ball a few times.. i am craving for rugby more den bowling.. really feel like playing rugby.. haha...

we played this sicsors paper stone game... haha.. i kinda had the feeling i'd win.. haha... it's like since young i've been good at predicting and reading (as long as u guys play slow with me and gimme time to think wuahahaha) like tt time play with millie haha... also win all the way.. lol... haha.. but i won kit kat which i like shared with the other guys haha... we were sitting outside the pool and enjoying the kit kat.. so nice.. yum yum...

i juz remembered!! i have finish calling everyone!! jia lat!!!!!! tml better call.. but now, i think i'm gonna surf the net and play games den zzzzzzzzzzzzz.... feel so lonely now.... kk.... good night pple....

Thursday, December 30, 2004

day for dentist appointment..

haha.. today had to go to school for SL stuff.. was like real late so i cabbed down once again.. zz... it was suppose to start at 10 but i woke up at like 10.15 haha.... was too tired.. den like when i reached, everyone was not doing anything haha.. slack day.. haha.. had to brush up on our act and stuff..

den we had to carry chairs and all.. first, we started with dragging which sooo damn hurt my fingers cos the edge is like so erm.. not say sharp la.. it juz hurts la.. even now when i clench my fist, it hurst haha.. so i decided to try carrying.. i noe carrying 10 chairs stacked up, looks intimidating so i started with 6 chairs.. oOo... so light!! easier den dragging.. if u drag, have to worry about whether will topple and it hurts.. haha.. den i was like ok try something more.. went for 8. den like.. i cannot lift it up cos will topple so got yong ming to give me a lil boost. so once i got it lifted up, everything was like stable. wow! still light.. and it's so much faster den dragging those dumb chairs.. spoils the chairs too.. so i hit 9, 10 and finally 11 chairs!! wow! i cant see where i was walking haha.. but it was quite ok la... lighter than carrying thos fullscap paper for the files.. i can tell u. the height looks scary but it's damn light. i swear it is.. look at kira and zhi wei, they are hell more stronger than me and yet i can carry. so of course johnny and the rest can la! those idiots scared ar? haha... han chin also.. cant believe it.. it's light la... ask them try, they dun wan.. scared wad? malu in front of yr ones ar? lol...

so anyway, got back and went to the dentist... wah.. i'm like soooo scared.. i was like "oh my! why did i even bother to come down..." so i told the dentist about my sensitive thingy and we were debating on extracting my tooth or not.. in the end.. i decided not to, cos it'll affect part of my chewing.. for the wisdom tooth, have to like go to an orthodox... so heck la.. juz got him to give me the shots to numb my mouth den carry on with patching.. man.. i din feel a thing! hahahaha cool!!! but.. now my mouth's numb.. all the way to the ears... wah... so uncomfortable.. i can like bite myself and dun even noe i bit myself.. lol... den like it will last for 2 hours!!! sianz.. and it's like getting more uncomfortable.. haiz..

k la.. i want to go play games le.. babye!

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

my handwriting analysis...

was doing this handwriting analysis thingy which is quite cool.. thanks to corinne who introduced it to me. haha... had fun noeing what kind of person i was.. but i think they put in too much about my sex drive? haha... i think maybe it refers to adults... maybe when i'm allgrown up? hahahahaha.... lol.. dunnoe la.. it's quite accurate but not really that accurate la... u guys read and find out lor.. =)



Gabriel has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Gabriel's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Gabriel has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Gabriel is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.


Gabriel is selective when picking friends. He does not trust everyone. He has a select group of people that are truly close to him, usually two or three. He is careful when choosing his inner circle of friends.


Gabriel has difficulty trusting anyone. In fact, he trusts no one completely. This is a result of his trust being betrayed in the past. He has closed up, thus ceasing to allow close friendships. Gabriel truly wants close friends and desires physical relationships, but he fears he will get hurt, again. He is lonely, yet has a crying need for close friends. This trait can cause much unhappiness. However, it can be changed.


Gabriel has a need to be physically aggressive. He has this need resulting from some unfulfilled physical drive. This drive could be fulfilled by a very physical sport or a very aggressive sex life.


Gabriel is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.


Gabriel is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Gabriel basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.


In reference to Gabriel's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Gabriel slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Gabriel can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.


Gabriel is talkative. He enjoys talking and socializing. He may talk when there is absolutely nothing important to say. He enjoys speaking.


When Gabriel expresses an opinion on a issue he will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change his mind. In other words... Gabriel is stubborn. When he is wrong about something that he has decided upon, he will have trouble admitting he is wrong. Changing Gabriel's mind can be very difficult. Once Gabriel makes up his mind, he doesn't want to be confused with the facts!



Gabriel has difficulty making decisions. His mind changes constantly. He lives in an emotional tug of war. Gabriel could be described like a thermometer. Today warm and friendly, yet tomorrow he may be distant and cold, not wanting to be close to anyone. Some research indicates that people with a severe variety in the slant of their handwriting have an inability to tolerate sugar and are suffering the side-effects of too much sugar in their diet. If moods swings are a reoccurring issue, investigate the diet. If Gabriel encounters a situation he cannot handle he frequently pulls into himself. He feels his emotions are secure if he is withdrawn. When he has solved the problem he can be very outgoing and again need other people's companionship. Some see Gabriel as very moody, but it it would be more accurate to say he has two complete personalities that he chooses depending on the circumstance. This type of person is often hard to understand because no one knows what personality he is exhibiting today. He may not be bothered by something one minute, then the next minute become upset at the same thing. It is very difficult to pin down Gabriel's emotional expressiveness.


People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Gabriel doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

lazy to wake up...

haiya.. today i muz go school for SL stuff.. i lazy to wake up ar.. muz reach by 10... so i took a cab down at 10.. hah... guess wad!? when i reached, i found out tt i only needed to reach at 11!!! wah! haha... waste my cab money!! toopid!! so i'm like broke already cos i paid for kira, zhiwei and taufiq's food.. and they still owe me my money!!!!!!!

ha.. so anyway, i went out late cos.. i could not find my jersey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where is my precious no. 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where are u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls come back to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun want to lose it... sobx.... pls... let me find it... God help me pls!! maybe i left it in church.. have to go and check.. i cant lose it.. haiz... so sad...

anyway, i had areal tiring day.. had to do packing for OG packages.. got my fingers all cut and blistered.. haiz... the file edges are sharp... so worked really hard to get em done.. 1000+ pakages to pack leh... haha. but i had fun la... now i have the list of pple in my OG... have to go call all of em.. 35 pple!! wah... bill sure veh ex one. den my mom will be like wondering if i have gerfren ar... haha..

so... now at home.. gonna go shower soon.. den play games... blah blah... dunnoe wad to do to.. my dear fren is out and i wont get to chat tonight.. and i think i have to go prepare some stuff.. and plan my money... as in.. wad should i spend on.. maybe one day, drop by causeway point to get the pair of levi's jeans i really want to buy... haha...

k la.. i go do my stuff le.. seeya pple!

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

have fun mapling!

haha.. i am like still sick but feeling damn much better! haha.... spent most of the time sleeping and mapling. haha... guess wad! i have finally found a ....*drum rolls* PAN LID!!! *symbals clashes* yay!!! after sooooo long.... i finally found 1!! haha... cool.... man... i also died 4 times while fighting in the dungeon... 20% of exp points.... GONE!!! wah.... sianz... if not i'm like so close to lvling up already haha... gonna be lvl 25.. after i reach lvl 25, i'm gonna call it a day and rest haha.. cool... so i should be going to the dentist today.. i think... and i hope so... dunnoe la... den after tt, come home do some of my own stuff and den sleep le.. tml surely got SL stuff.. kk so see ya pple!

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Lalalala~

i'm still sick!!! help!!! cos it hurts!! ar!! haha..... i din say but on saturday, diarrhea... hehe.. i din want to say cos i din noe how to spell and it's quit embarrassing.. hahahaha.... so ya.. today i woke up and when i decided to go back to sleep, my tummy!! ar!! so i ran to the toilet... styaed there for quite some time.. haha...


anyway, ytdy was my sis's bdae, and kelvin wished her happy b'dae, like for no reason ha! like my sis will noe u!! but thanks anyway.. den had bbq.. was playing with my cousins... haha... den most probably it's beacuse of raw food that i ate tt got me sick again.. dunnoe hu la.. but say medium rare can eat.... blah blah! haha... it was medium raw! ah!!!! haha.... man... my tummy hurts..

i think i have to stop already cos i need to visit my favourite hang out for today bYE!!!!!

Monday, December 27, 2004

i'm like this...

it's early in the morning.
i'm still chatting...
and i'm kinda hurting....
wad i've been through, u'll never understand...
being honest is the way i chose to do things...
it hurts me to hurt u.
and i am really pierced in the heart.
i din mean it.
not beacuse u're naive or what..
but it's me being over cautious, unconfident of myself...
i dunnoe if i could carrying living with this kind of hurt...
i juz want to get rid of it....
it's like a burden...
i noe who to turn to. but i choose not to.
all i wish is to juz let you understand what i meant is best for me and you....

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Christmas gifts preparation

ok... now it's my sis's birthaday.. 26 december... hope tml i'd get some presents.. haven recieved a single one so far... oh ya, maybe except for esther's gift. she dropped by my house today, kinda like a visit.. haha.. my first visitor.. haha.. so we had a nice chat and stuff..

after she left, i kinda spent most of my time gaming and chatting and stuff.. hmm... nothing much to do except preparing for my gifts for tml.. i need to crack my head to try remember who are in the youth ministry.. haha... so now it's like 12.15 am.. i juz finish writing the names on the thingy i wanna give out tml.. hope they will like it. ha... looks kinda old.. haiz.. dunnoe if it will make a good gift.. unless i like explain it's from indonesia.. maybe it'll mean something or maybe, they may thing it's cheap stuff... but.... after all, it's the thought that counts right? haha... now i got like one last shoe key chain but so many names.. dunnoe which to put.. those that din get the key chain will et a bookmark or some other keychain.. those that i sell... haha...

so anyway, my sis is helping me out right now... and i'm like feeling so bored and i cant sleep... nothing to do except maybe go back and game.. but i do tt, i cant wake up tml haha.. sianz... now what... i dunnoe what to do ar... haha.. maybe i'll like juz lie in bed and control my newly found bad habbit.. man.. it's getting worst by the day... damn!!!! muz control.. self control... control..... control........ control............... argh!!! so difficult!! but i'm still controling... zzzzzzz...

Saturday, December 25, 2004

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

ok.. so it's christmas morning and i'm playing maple story.. i am feeling a lil better except for the throbing headache.. man.. it's killing me.. i cant lift my head fully cos it hurts so much.. my parents came back real late.. but my dad brought me a lil something from heineken.. haha.. it's a watch.. a real cool watch cos u can listen to the radio with it.. cool huh... haha..

soo... i was juz mapling with emi.. den like nothing much to do.. juz train my character.. train, train, train.. wonder still got wad quest i have not done... so boring juz training.. and i nearly died quite a few times cos i was checking msgs.. haha.. i like recieved more than 10 christmas greetings in half an hour den i keep checking cos i tot someone else replied my msg haha....

i guess it's really late le.. my mom's gonna make noise soon.. dunnoe if i should go sleep or play till she grumble.. haha.. let see. nitez pple and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

past nightmare...

in the past.. i remember how i use to have this nightmare.. dunnoe why, but i'm awake and i'm having a nightmare.. i dun dare to sleep now... it's a kind of really anxious kind of feeling.. even whentyping this now, i can feel the uncomfortableness... it's like everything u say in ur mind is emplified.. i'm juz sooo scared... been a long time since i had this.. i have this only when i have a fever.. i remember how i used to wake up crying feeling so scared for nothing.. is like the slightess sound juz freaks me out...

i dunnoe how to explain.. like the world is in a slowed down pace but u're in a hyper pace... too hyper till u juz cant take it.. tt's something like wad i'm feeling... it's sooo wierd.. even playing maple becomes like an adrenaline rush... it's soo uncomfortable... ar... God help me...

what a bummer!!

argh!!! i am sick! and it's christmas!! argh!! my family members have all gone out for christmas parties and i'm at home sleeping and resting.. zzzzz.... so sad!! dunnoe how i got sick too... juz last night, i was feeling uncomfortable.. was feeling cold.. den after a while, den ok liaoz, but my tummy felt soo uncomfortable... felt like vomiting too... den i was like chatting on msn till like 2 am. den go back, saw my hp emi msged. so i replied den she say call and chat cos she got nothing to do. so ok lor... den was chatting with her, den junjie (MI) den shannon.. haha... they were having some prefects' camp in yishun sec ar...

wah.. chat for like sooooo long... den like i cannot tahan liaoz den tell her i go sleep.. haha... after a while a fell asleep den i dream... i cant remember wad i was doing but i remember the part where i was sick... first i was soo cold till i entered this building, den suddenly, i felt really really HOT!! (muz have covered my whole body, even the head with my blanket..) den i was like dying and suffocating.... i was sooo sick.. den i remember in my dream there's this clinic. but i dun trust those idiots cos they were a bunch of liers somehow... so i decided to check out else where... soon, i could not tahan. i was burning up.. my face's sooo hot! i went back to tt clinic but like the doctor.... he like erm.... very hard to trust type.. i told him i was sick. den he touch me.. wah soo hot! so he gave me a jab.. dunnoe why but i was scared of the jab haha... so i got the jab and den i woke up... by tt time, my fever kinda subsided a lil.. so wierd right!? muz be cos i took down the blanket. haha...

so... the whole of today i was like looking for panadol.. sooo sick.. my hands also no strength to type and play haha... all i did was like lie around.. wished that there's someone who loved me taking care of me.. haha.. so sweet... den i juz fell asleep haha...

anyway, i'm going to end here... my hands are like sooo tired.. body's aching.. zzzzz.... so babye!

Friday, December 24, 2004

school's gonna reopen..

haha.. today another ok day la.. quite fun.. never thought i'd reach school on time lol... so had to practice our intro for orientation, den do lotsa planning... had the dance first thing in the morning.. haha.. by now i forget 50% liaoz.. lol...

so anywa, school's gonna reopen and i have not study much.. how!! jia lat already la... surely will have lots of problems... now, i juz miss someone but i dunnoe hu.. haha.. juz feel like typing blog... den maybe play maple to keep my mind off stuff haha...

last night quite fun la.. was chatting with corinne haha.. funny girl.. tongue always out one. ha! but i was juz going through her photos and stuff.. man.. today dunnoe wad i'll be doing.. wondering if i'll do anything fun tonight.......... so i'll juz go play maple le.. cya!

Thursday, December 23, 2004

JogJarkata trip: Wednesday..

ok... so on this day, we went to visit all 3 orphanages we were planning to go. needed to meet their 'principals' ma.. so we did.. den went to the first home nearby, nice cosy place... spoke to one of the helpers and told her about what we were planning to do den after tt went to have a look around. dropped by the kitchen and this old lady was frying tempe ( fried soya bean.. it has been mixed with like flour? den sliced into thin pieces.) man.. my maid cooked it once for me before.. YUCKS!!! den bro stanely was like "mmmm nice, nice!" haha.. it kinda tastes sour.. tt's why.. if not, it's quite fine lar actually haha..we kinda paid the lady money for the lunch we were gonna serve cos we were kinda supposed to feed children.. part of our mission. haha.. so we paid her and left..

ok.. so we had to visit 2 more homes.. we went to the boy's orphanage first... man.. quiet nice comfy place.. haha.. real peaceful... so we kinda asked questions about the kids and stuff. most of the kids parents were killed by indonesian muslims during the conflict between muslims and christians.. so those children are like real revengefull in their heart, but thank God. the were brought to these orphanages. cos most of the kids wanted to join the 'christian army' to fight the muslims which i feel is soo wrong.. the muslims may have killed their parents but revenge is not the right way.. in the home, i was glad to hear that many of these children have dropped the idea of revenge.. real nice... if not, the war wil never end...

next we went down to the girls home... wah.. a very beautiful place.. haha... not cos there's girls la.. but it's like so clean, and nice and comfy.. girls there are ranging from about 5 yrs to 15 yrs old.. nice young girls.. they were like soooo damn happy to see visitors... i realized something at all the homes i went to, it is their way of like shaking everyone's hand so is like we have shake the hands of like almost all the kids haha... the sister in charge of that home was real nice and she treated us real well... we did the same for the boys and girls home by paying them the money for their food.. den we left..

so after all the visiting was done, we had all the rest of the day for free time. haha.. cool.. went shopping den walked up street to the french restaurant.. amn.. after we ordered our food, it kind of like took us an hour before we recieved it.. wah kaoz!! sianz.... but the food was real nice la.. haha.. i liked it but some of them din really like it especially angel cos the food was spicy.. haha..

but anyway, we walked back and on the way, i saw this stall selling this bag.. i decided to juz have a look den i was like wow.. not bad... quite nice... so i asked dec whether he want to buy. at first he was like aiya... not nice la.. haha.. den i took it up and put it on his hand. after some inspection, he was like "u want to buy or not? if u want, i buy with u" haha.. so of course buy la. but tt guy was selling it at 50k rp... so esther helped us bargain. immediately, she hit 50% down. *wow* haha.. the guy say no 30k rp. den esther say, "put the bags down and go." i was like wah lao.. dun wan la... den she like keep saying so i juz put lor.. den suddenly the guy, "okok 50k rp for 2" hahaha... cool! after tt, i noe how to bargain liaoz. wuahahahahaha!!!

so go back room, den bathe and sleep le...

to be continued....

Guess i'm In...

ha.. guess i'm in SC now.. cool.. had lotsa fun today.. haha.. actually i stil want to write about my indo trip but i lazy liaoz heh... hmmm.. today's michelle's birthday, and it kinda slipped my mind... totally! so dedicated to her.

"Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to....
MICHELLE!
Happy birthday to you!!"
ok so.. something cool happened today.. haha.. we ordered back mac today for lunch, u noe, the delivery haha... they took like 2 hours to deliver. make us soooo hungry. den had to carry on with our orientation prep.. so did MI dance. haha.. fun.. i partner kai ling, den keeo disturbing her. haha.. BABA!! hahahaha!!!!
den after some time, our mac finaly came! haha.. they came in a taxi!? haha.. so wierd.. but anyway, our food were like not hot already and our fries, soggy.. eeeeeeeee.... so kira called and complain. haha.. power.. we get second delivery lol! free!!! so much fries.. eat until like siao ar!! haha... but i din eat much la. except yong ming.. haha.. i cant eat too much carbo cos i'll grow fat.. aint exercising much these days.... but gonna have to do some jogging soon... 20 mins continuous... wonder if i can or not.. haha..
soo.. had a really fun and cool day today.. tml i'll be going back to school haha.. later i write about my indo trip... so seeya pple!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

MONEY!!! YAY!!!

haha.. wad a nice christmas present from holland-bukit panjang grc. guess wad!? i dunnoe wad in the world i did but i got $150 for some outstanding leadership stuff. cool huh.. haha.. i think muz be e-club la.. win so many awards haha.. so looking forward to get it so i can buy clothes yeah!!

so today din do much. suppose to go out with min but i too lazy to call her cos i dunnoe which no. to call. den decided to go bugis to look for fishing lures but changed my mind.. decided that i'd stay home, play games and go cut hair. so i did cut my hair... soooo short haha... anyway, i did go climb stairs.. haha... very fast sia. like 2mins i climbed 20 storeys.. haha.. by 15th storey, i want to die liaoz.. haha muz go and practice le.. train every day so tt when i go back rugby training, i wont suffer. need to train cos i nvr exercise for half a month liaoz.. no stamina...

anyway, i would juz like to say something about my previous entry.. got to admit i was kinda too harsh.. i was juz very angry juz now.. full of hatred... now i ok le... siao siao qi~

ok... later den or tml den type about my trip. haha.... babye!

juz a reflection..

i was... juz watching the uncensored version of along came polly... it juz kinda got me mad and angry with lisa. and it kinda reminded me of things in the past... though it was not like what happened in the show, but it hurt me... dunnoe whether u guys got watch that show.. i feel sorry for reuben.. man... he juz left his wife with a scuba diving instructor for juz a few hours and that happens.. damn shit. i'm juz so mad.... i hate girls like that.. i'm going to qoute what reuben said to lisa... it's a lil crude but.. it kinda meant something to me.

"you screwed a scuba diving instructor on our honeymoon!
what kind of cold heartless bitch would do that to someone they love...
I had to be an idiot to get back to u after that."
of course this is not what i want to say to esther but it is juz how i feel about what u did.. damn did it hurt me real bad.. i still think of you. i still miss u. but i can never forget what u did. it hurts u noe... someone i love with my whole heart. and because i left u alone for a while.. u love someone else with ur whole heart someone u told me u would love 'forever' den now what? u want to patch. it'll so damn never happen. i may never love another girl again because of some stuff. but i noe that i'd rather be alone than have a girl that doesn't love me whole heartedly. till the day i find one, which i may never noe. i dun want to get involve in any of this love hate stuff.. it hurts... real bad...
like the 8 o'clock show. kuai le yu... how that jiaxi treat her husband.. damn it sux. i hate her! that time when he go care about her, den she chased him away and even poured water on him. by seeing his face it so damn broke my heart.. i feel soooo sorry for him... girls juz dun understand how much a guy can love them. take the for granted... i'm juz soooo hurt i dunnoe wad i want or what to do...
anyway, i'm gonna go climb stairs now.. train stamina.. so see u guys soon... will be updating my blog on my trip.

the day i arrived..

ok... so tuesday was the the i arrived at jogjarkarta.. before my flight there, i was at changi with my frens and all.. so nice.. haha.. we ate delifrance and something funny happened.. ask qiu xia heh... den we had to go in. took pics den prayed den go in.. juz nice, jess msged me ask us go sentosa! haha finally!!! lol. so i was like how to plan cos i entering plane so i called her haha... cool.. den chat a while. so she told me she's going to bintan, so is my family... haha..

anyway, i entered the plane.. man.. i was quite scared.. been a long time since i sat on a plane.. asked dec to changed place with me cos i want to sit window.. den like take off was so scary.. haha.. den hit those dark clouds make the whole plane so bumpy also very scary... haha.. but fun la... too bad cant see anything cos dark clouds and all.. by the time we were half way through, the sky was dark already.. haha...

so reached there about 8+ Singapore time. there 7+ but the sky so black.. haha.. we had a real short discussion that night den we went down to mac. haha.. guess wad. at mac we ate rice burgers lol!! haha.. it is actually rice wrapped in the shape of a burger haha.. the rice plain plain one but the chicken, wah.... soooo nice!! haha... shiok ar! den i remember cos i not used to the currency, wadeva digits displayed on the counter looked so big. especially when i had to pay.. i was like wad!? so ex!! lol.. actually half price of what it is in singapore. haha...

den we went down to their version of 7-11, 'K' haha... bought some snacks and mineral water cos no kettle to boil water.. so we returned to our rooms after buying and sleep le. next morning muz wake up very early to go see the homes and meet their so called 'principal'. so zzzzzzzzzzzz....

to be continued....

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

wah.. finally back!!

ok.. so i'm finally back in Singpore.. so nice to back back home.. will miss the pple there especially this person. haha... gd fren la.. haha... cool person and is it a secret?? erm.. nah... is someone i met a few days back at a shop haha. cool. since now maple patching up, got time to write so here goes......

so woke up like 4 am to get changed and had a lil breakfast haha... den left the hotel den that decy left his hp in the hotel! thank God, mutiara got 2 hotels so he got time to run back cos the shuttle bus will stop at ours first den go to the next. so he managed to get his phone back haha...

on the plan ar.. wah.. so nice not like our flight there so dark. today's flight is morning mah den no rain haha cooL! like cartoon like that floating on clouds, fying over sheeps bah~ haha... den so nice to look out the window.. the landing this time round also very smooth so nice.. haha... but so sad.. i sit wrong side of plane den cannot see singapore.. only can see sea. hahahaha....

ok so reached le den have to wait for the rest so slow dunnoe do wad so i go make phone calls free ma. haha.. den prank call declan. den call my mom and ec. haha... den also today working day so so little pple come pick us.. so sad.. sobx.. haha... but sis evelyn gave me a lil card and kit kat. auntie ann bought the nachos for me cos my mom cant be there... so nice of her..

took auntie ann's car home.. tot i had to go home myself.. but nice la.. got car den can rest.. den reach home le den school call got SC/FL meeting.. haha... i juz came back so i give excuse.. lol... dunnoe if tml got training.. i dying to play rugby but no clothes lol. maybe tml take he day off go sleep.. but i am gonna do my own training.. my muscles all like changing into fats le.. so muz exercise haha...

anyway, i slept real long after i came back and i had a really wild dream.. haiz.... dunnoe why will dream of such dumb things.. war and all. haha... so i'll write about my trip later or tml. too lazy to continue... now gonna go take shower and eat dinner by tt time, juz nice can play maple le. hehe.... seeya!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

back to my past

so.. today is the 14th of december. esther msged me this morning... 2 years ago on this day we got together at toa payoh buildng... i still can remember most of the things that happened.. it was like juz yesterday... things were nice, exciting... nice to finally noe someone who loves u.. haha.. but guess that's in the past..

today is the day i'll be leaving for jakarta.. i am doing last minute typing so my mum's kinda rushing me now. haha.. i need to go check my stuff juz in case, so i'll do a brief typing for now.. be back on sunday.. so ya... cant wait to get my last box of nachos before i go.. gonna miss all of u guys... =(

last night kinda dreamt of weijing haha... dreamt he died.. i was sooo sad.. kin wai the saddest haha.. this morning i wake up first thing i check was my msn den guess wad!! i dun see weijing's contact anywhere!! i desperate. i go faster ask pple for his email to check hope he comes online.. but so far, i haven seen him online... i finally got his contact from lip chun.. hope things are going well for him.. kinda miss my sec school frens... they're one cool bunch...

so anyway, i gtg le.. so see u guys next week! =)

indonesia, here i come!!

ha.. will be leaving tml at 6pm... gonna be there for about a week, so dunnoe if i'll be able to update blog.. but anyway, i'll be bringing a journal so i'll update in the journal den update here... ha... haven pack bag yet.. gonna pack after typing this.

so anyway, had the whole day sepnt on mapling which kinda was a waste of time cos i'm gonna restart again! haha.. i noe i restart a hell lot of times le but i really did something dumb that makes me wanna restart. anyway, i'll juz test out and see whether need to restart.. argh!! i'm soooo dumb!

so heck la... i did not do much today.. whole day in front of the screen, wondering when i'll go blind... CHOI! haha.. i believe that one day i'll be healed. AMEN! haha.. quite sian, den i like skip meals.. haha.. cant remember myself eating much.. cant wait for tml man.. it's been a long long time since i took a plane.. cant wait to get on it.. gotta go pack too.. haven do much packing yet, haiz....

i haven start studying.. dunnoe how i'll do next year.. maths is gone case for me but i hope i cant start anew next year, really hope so... i noe nuts about maths haiz.... i've been a really bad boy and it's time fer me to change. hope things will turn out fine next year...

kk so i shall go check if maple's back on, if not, i'll go pack bag. seeya!

Monday, December 13, 2004

forgotten about blogging...

haha.. last night i was playing maple trying to do something until so damn late.. den my mama ask me sleep so forgot to write blog... now also like got lesser pple visit le. haha.. my tag board soooo quiet.. zzz...

anyway, today church, i do video whole session ar!! sianz.... idiotic lazy pple! den that dumb brian go open up the present thing i made... haiz.... now i broke one bottle le cos no tape cover den dropped... haiz... nvm la... at least not esther's or sophia's broke but auntie pat's...

actually nothing much happened today la... had to do packing for my indonesia trip... den did recording thingy for the one accord song. den i came home le... my sister keep rushing me to go home... but i tired also la.. i think i'll go sleep early.. hope can do something fun tml before i leave.

so i go rest le.. later wan to chiong maple.. haha...

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Damn Dumb Night

things that happened tonight are juz so dumb! i juz came back from some stupid divisional missions meeting which wasted a hell lot of my gaming time! it was for those hu nvr go on sunday.. darn.. waste time only.. my holidays are sooo burned i dun have time for games only like today but 2 hrs of gaming time wasted listening to adults yadaing away. den my stupid sister and her stupid birthday party. she so big liaoz still want wad party!? i like nvr have party since pri 6 liaoz. grow up la! den now maple down. dunnoe wad de hell happened. but is a damn waste of time. soon i've gotta go indo for fever, den come back, if i selected for sc, i have to go back for the last 2 weeks. i haven done my chem project which is already due, no time to study, no time for games, no time for school holiday homework. damnit la! dun waste my time! doubt i'll be going for workday cos i heard sis esther say cleaned liaoz. so i juz heck care la.. let the others do the cleaning if it's not done. wanna replace that time for gaming or maybe fishing in the morning.

so like such a boring day. i wake up late cos i've been sleeping late the past few days cos of camp. had some rest play a lil bit of games, slept a lil more. and soon night liaoz. damn fast ar... tuesday i'll be leaving in the evening. i've gotta do some preparations and spend time on prayer. damn frustrated about today. damn waste of time. dunnoe wad to say la.. i dun want to waste time le la. since maple cannot work den i'll go do my other stuff liaoz. den maybe pray and sleep. it's gonna be a nice night cos of rain and thunder.. i like thundery nights. so i'll have a good night's sleep today.. nitez.

Friday, December 10, 2004

back liaoz!!

ok so i'm back from camp.. slept like 6 hrs!! from 3+pm to 9+pm. i really had lack of sleep ar... i like every night sleep damn late.... play play and play.. haha... soo let me think of wad has happened during camp...

hmmm.. my previous entry actually kind of got cut short, dunnoe why... it kinda had all the details of day one... but heck. i'll juz type wad i remember now.. haha... soooo i had a group for games and we had costa sands idol.. haha.. it was funny.. my group's skid was sooo damn imprompto it was quite dumb and the audience found it funny haha... we had to make use of these 3 words: ciabatta, fisticuffs and impedementa. haha.. funny words ya? but they all have meaning.. haha.. wondering wad they mean?? find out urself haha...

sooo.... i noticed this girl that kinda look like one of esther's friend, shuying. haha.. kinda got the jap look.. i think they look a like in terms of smile.. haha.. got the dimple too. haha... quite cute ar...

sooo... we had games the 3rd day. very fun... but injured me a lot! more than rugby trainings! wah kao!! my feet are all sore and i have cuts all over my leg and i got an aching neck! ok.. so min joined us for the games. i played one against her team. haha the cannoeing one.. that dumb girl sat on the cannoe the wrong way!!! haha.. she like nearly cannoe out to sea and had to be saved haha!! den there this game, erm.. captains ball using papaya. so dumb! haha.... one throw den piak! all smashed haha... we had erm... something like dodgeball but use shuttle cocks and rackets haha.. fun... den had this dig the deepest hole in the sand game. haha.. i got myself stuck in the hole cos i go in den bury myself for fun haha... den.... got this game like touch rugby. saula in charge so he kinda saw i had this rugby T. it was kinda cool. he gave me extra points if i tackled joshua. haha... den there's one game like scrum. haha. it was alled push ball.. there's this like damn big ball and u have to push it on the muddy ground.. haha fun.. we like bind and push.. haha.. we all fight against the big guys and we won somemore haha.. it was a damn tough fight.. that's why i am having a back ache now. haha...

so at night, saula kinda came over and chat with us about all his rugby experience.. and is like we have the same dream of starting a rugby club for our church. den maybe we can play in the league... but need a coach first la.... now it is juz an idea.. i'll keep in touch and hope that one day, there'll be a rugby team where we can bring pple to church through our club. cool huh? haha... cant wait...

overall, great camp.. i'm so sleepy, i cant think properly.. so tired.. so maybe if i remember anything, i'll update.. nite pple!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

1st day of youth camp..

haha... wondering how i can update during camp right?? haha... dunnoe but some how jonathan discovered that there's internet connection here and we can surf the net so i come blog type lor.. haha... surprising

Monday, December 06, 2004

packing for camp...

ok.. so i am still packing for camp.. dunnoe wad to bring.. even clothes also dunnoe which one to pack.. haha... den my tooth brush also need to pack.. i scared i forget haha... anyway, i cant wait to go for camp and have a nice time with God... it's gonna be like a preparation camp for me.. prepare me for the indonesia trip..

sooo... i am quite tired now.. very sleepy.. haha... but i feel like maple a lil more... anyway, today was quite a nice sunday.. did not have normal church service.. instead we had some kind of buffet and stuff.. haha nice... had lots of food... eat until full.. today my face still very red.. got a bit of burns and it kinda hurt.. haha..

soo..after service went down to the arcade where i kinda had quite a boring time there.. haha.. non of the games interest me.. haha.. so i went home... den i juz played comp and waited for mymom to come back.. cos she ta pao food for me.. heh.. was watching evolution.. funny ar.. haha..

i think i should go to sleep le.. cos tml still need to do final packing and i'm meeting the rest of the guys to buy titbits for camp. hee... so good night pple!

beach touch

today wake up late so missed Emi's morning call.. haha pai seh! wakep den muz chiong get ready and leave the house go help my grandma carry stuff... den after that, my mom dropped me at harbour front mrt to meet the rest of the ruggers... actually, i too tired to type so i type tml. good night and wait for update! haha...


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ok... so had beach touch.. when i reached sentosa, wah.. like so nice ar.. sunny, wind, breeze... not say a lot of pple la.. we were there early.. so we juz rested and waited for our game.. haha.. dunnoe why i dun feel like going into details... but i remember as second team player, we got through the qualification.. we were like damn looked down on.. confirm cannot qualify that type to the extent that they juz gave us 3 players and first team 5. damn it! i tell u.... if they had thrown 1 player over, we'd have beaten JJ and top our div... damn! if we topped our div, we wont play ITE combined. so i played the whole of the first game... wah i tell u ar.. i can die ar! i chiong the whole game cos there's no sub for us! so how to win! we lose JJ 3-1... the 1 try is i score one... but i still not happy cos we can win JJ.. damn it la.. navin dun want to send over one guy.
anyway, after the JJ game, they send one over.. han chin. thanks man! u dunnoe how damn thankful i was! ok... we beat cherry blossoms... but they were juz some young jap kids... but they're good for their age... they'll be good beach touch ruggers when they grow up... cool... so went to quarter finals where we had to play ITE combined.... damn.. i nearly scored 1... haiz.. i dived at the line but that guy touched me on time... i was shocked when i realise i was actually at the line den the ite boys were kind of like laughing.. so got up and i should have dived!! wad de heck was i doing!!! argh!!! haha.. heck la.. my second chance of scoring was when hanchin kinda did quite a nice pass but too un expected for me... cos i needed to sprint up to catch that beautiful ball... but i din.. if not that one, confirm try... even if they chase me, i pass back to han chin, try! haha... but nvm la.. we got trashed liaoz...
overall, not bad la.. i scored quite a few... haha.. fun... al the bikini babes and all... oh ya.. saw this girl.. haha. real hot! she was wearing a hot pink bikini suit and when she was wearing clothes that time, her back and walking pattern like ec.. haha... i stunned at first i tot ec.. den i think why would she be there haha no rugby in her school wad.. haha... soo... nothing la... juz had fun.. swim and all.. enjoyed myself..now i'm all red.. mild burns.. haha... kk... be back later to update for today... cya!

Saturday, December 04, 2004

my 'grand' send off.. haha...

ok.. so today is my 'grand' send off to indonesia.. haha... not grand at all.. haha... i cant wait to go... i want to be at the airport cos i like that place. cant wait to meet the children, eat with them, play with them, love them... but today's sermon thingy quite scary.. mardios...(if it is spelt corrsectly) indian God of shiva... so scary... how the girl's voice sounded so deep and manly... sooo scary.. can u imagine?? demon possessed pple are like pple from the show exorcist... man... and the other lady with this sin she has and dun want to change change and God told pam seaward to dedicate her to satan... to satan!? i cant imagine those screams when her body started burning up spiritually after being dedicated to satan.. the demons she sees... eeee... i dun want to go to hell... i'm gonna go to indonesia and do my best. show them God's love and hope they'll come to God... save them from the burning legion... hate them.

but of course got nice stuff too.. about how this man never bathe, shave, cut nails and all... begging on the streets and pam seaward cleaned him, and tears juz began rolling down his eyes... i'd really love to show love to someone out there who really needs love... next year, i think i'll go east timor... help that country....

so anyway, tml gonna have my sentosa touch tournament... cant wait.. haha... gonna need strapper for my feet.. maybe i'll go fishing after the tournament.. a short while... go play at some breakwaters. see if can get a grouper or something.. haha.. long time never fish le.. den maybe go down to beach road and then to the edge.. haha..

ok... today nothing much la... stayed at home whole day relax.. den when go out, i had to go look for flowers for lee min.. cos i owe her ar.. finally found some lilies but haven open.. haiz... so sad.... but no choice le la haha...

after everyone else left, i was juz thinking about wad micheal said about me and girls haha... i dun have the attracting powers other guys have la.. haha.. he like totally predicted wad kind of guy i am.. haha.. muz be that training thingy... i am that kind of guy like ger wont jio one only make friends haha.. i'll most probably ask for email if i got the guts haha... quite silly thinking about how timid i am. haha... i think cos last time, the first girl i really like kinda ignored me for damn long.. we were juz friends but when she found out i like her, she like ignored me... so sad... den i think from tt day on, i always tell myself be friends is better than getting ignored.. so... i've never tell a girl i liked her (unless maybe she tells me first) after that incident. for esther's case, she asked me... so i said... haha...

ok... so i have to plan for my clothing le.. i dun have enough clothes for 2 trips... i think during church camp, i also want to fish.. i dying to fish. haha... i cant remember wad else i wan to type le... so i stop here.. oh ya.. saw esther juz now... i kinda melt a lil... i do miss her... but missing someone is different from loving someone...

Friday, December 03, 2004

soo blessed!

haha.. these few days, God has really helped me in many ways.. i feel soo o blessed.. haha... i'm even having pizza for dinner. haha.. gonna grow fat.. anyway, tml's gonna be my send off session.. gonna go to indonesia in two weeks times.. gonna miss everyone especially my newly made friends..

soo.. i had rugby training today but.. i din go haha.. i kinda overslept..(like real..) hee... today physical la.. so dun feel like going... den very tired too... wanted to go return stocks from my entrepreneur comp but janet not around.. den she'll be leaving tml, coming back on 14th. den i'll be leaving on the 14th.. haha... sooo... this saturday will be my sentosa beach touch tournament.. haha i'm soo excited but i dunnoe if i'm playing cos i din go training today.. i'll ask tml hee... i really wanna play! gonna fun with lots of bikini babes. LOL! haha.... gonna make new friends le.. i think... that's if kelvin, kai they all go la.. if not very sian ar.. i like got nothing in common with the ruggers.. haha.. we all go in separate groups one..

hmm... today early morning emily gave me morning call le.. haha... 7.30am.. she so poor thing, lost her voice.. haiyo.. hope she's ok.... hmmm.. i played maple secretly today hehe.. my mama din noe.. haha... den at about 1pm suppose to meet a customer.. i forgot! so my mom sent me down. settle the thing le, den i follow her go jurong do some road tax thingy den go dec's house pass uncle boyle the documents for auntie ann.. haha... something silly happened but nothing la.. haha...

ok.. came home dunnoe wad to do.. feel like chatting but online got no one... sianz.. play ps.. all my old games... so sian... but ok la.. help me past time... i think i'll call Em and chat.. maybe... i dunnoe la.. i am thinking of doing some workout now den go bathe den think of things to do later... really need to keep myself fit, or else ar.... haha...

ok la.. so i shall get to doing my work out le... oh ya.. tml gonna see lee min... actually need to buy lilies but i dunnoe how leh.. haiz... maybe i'll find some girl later go with me go buy... i think min will be shocked after she see me... haha.. i changed quite a bit since she left... fitter, darker... taller.. haha.... and no more specs... haha... wanna see her reaction.. skally no reacton sia den not fun le.. haha... kk i go le.. cya pple!


Thursday, December 02, 2004

another day alone haha..

soo.. today had to meet bro stanely to plan for our indonesia trip... i wanna claim cip points!! wuahahahaha!!! 6 days of cip!!! hahahahahaha! hmmm... thank God for another thing. u noe my sentosa touch tournament, it is this saturday!! yay!!! so that means i can go to indonesia without worrying i wont be playing haha! but hope i can make the first team... only got 5 in first team... my chances to make first team only 20% i think... haiz... but nvm la haha. i juz want to play..

ok. suppose to meet dec to go down to raffles city together, but that stupid boy overslept!! i at cck liaoz he still sleeping!! haha.. pig! but nvm la.. we still made it there on time den we discussed. after finish, we had BK for lunch.. u guys noe the new BK drink?? the one can put flavour into sprite?? haha... i tried it for fun haha... guess wad. first i tasted the powder.. mmm... mint. den i pour all in and did the dumbest thing. i covered the lid. haha.. wah!!! suddenly got fountain ar!!! damn beautiful!! haha... like champaign!! haha... ocean blue fountain haha... actually quite embarrassing la... a lot of pple looking. haha....

ok.. so dec left first cos his frens waiting for him le.. so i kenna pang seh.. but nvm la... i decided to try out a second day of being alone.. haha... actually, quite fun la.. haha... i went to bugis to look for some fishing stuff. lures mainly.. want to go luring someday soon. sooo... i walked down bugis junction, kinda like trying to explore singapore more haha... went down to visit henry at coho.. been a while since i've been there... so walk halfway, i saw some one at the field teaching another guy how to cast with a fly rod... den i see the action.. hmmm.. look like henry den i walked closer.. haha henry!! haha... fly fishing is fun.. i'm thinking of taking it up.. so anyway, i chatted with him a while den go walk walk along beach road.. had a look at the new bait caster by daiwa... cool!!! the daiwa alpha! wah.. sweeeeet! but.... $$$$.... lol... $4oo.... sianz... if only i'm rich... or me b'dae my daddy buy for me.. haha... but... dun thinki want la... i will remain loyal to my caspro... haha..

ok... bought a lure den went back to coho and chat for a while... emily kinda called me. or was it i msg her.. haha.. i forgot but chatted with her a while.. she speak chinese, i speak english haha... anyway, nothing much la.. den go home liaoz....

sooo din do much at home... den Em msged me... den i called her to chat lor... actually quite nice to chat with her la... i also like dunnoe wad to talk one... she like too friendly le haha.... but i like it la.. at least got pple to chat with on the phone... den now like watching sg idol... hmm.... so that's about it for today... babye!

watchnight 2004!

thank God!! i can suddenly use my internet!! man.. i was soooo worried i'd die of boredom cos no net to serve.. haha.... thank God.... sooo... ok let's talk about last night hahahahahaha!!

ok.. so i was late, when i reached there, nothing much have started so heng ar. haha... ok.. so i brought my that damn baggy jeans and my jumper for bro andrew for his vfc idol competition haha... he was gonna do a rap!? haha... man.. it din sound like one but.. it was funny la. haha...i kinda liked the duet one about the 'lemme' and 'ollie' haha... so cute.. but i forgot the song liaoz.. den there was this 'swan lake' one where they kinda had this ballet dance.. haha.. MEN WEARING SKIRTS!!!!! OMG!! hahahahahaha!! man. it looked gross haha... but one of their skirts were like dropping and tt was the funny part hahahahaha! den there was this micheal jackson one.. ha! man!!! tt rocked! he remodel the lyrics sooo damn well it fit in with the song like no one's business haha..... sounds great man!~ i give him credit for it!

soooo.. nothing else much happened except tt we (the youths) had our own time as a cooperate youth... we were gonna have our games and stuff haha.... (ah... as i'm typing, i'm seeing everyone is waking up now.. haha...) so i remember we like fighting over whether we should play murderer or polar bear haha... wierd games la...

ok.. so soon we left for our outdoor games.. our first stop, mustafa.. we had to like get ourselves tied up and go buy stuff... quite silly la... haha.. have to admit, i found the games quite boring... i tot we were like going place to place to like eat and shop or something.. ended up play games!? waste time and boring la.... haiyo... we were like in a supermarket den i was like buy food to eat! den matthew keep saying me.. dunnoe wad is his prob la.. maybe he thinks i'm joking... I'M NOT! i'm hungry!!!!!!! saw a 7-11 there but no nachos!!!!!!!!! sianz........

so.... our second stop.. i kinda recognise that place.. been there for direct sales... it's somewhere off chong pang... there's this like inaccessible shopping centre there.. haha.. ok.. so we had to drink up one bucket of water this time haha.... there are like straws and tubes which we had to use to drink.. haha.. declan drink like crazy.. whole time there.. haha.. after tt bloated ha! den there's this second game where we have to blow flour away and use our mouth to pick up fruits ha.. i din play.. was kinda lazy.. but i did have the urge to go blow flour and like pick up something for fun... haha.. but i din budge.. lol..... so everyone was like spitting flour out and all haha....

ok.. had dinner there.. only one stall open.. we like bombarded the uncle with 14 bowls of noodles hahaha... he had to rush man.. juz sat there and chat and chat and chat.. den saw jeremy seaward playing with this really large praying mantis. haha.. i was like cool!!! so big go scare someone!! haha. so i picked it up and everyone freaked out!! first one run away, jonathan!! haha.... so jeremy like made a deal with me. he said he'd gimme 5 bucks to go put it on sulinn haha.. but sulinn and joy were like sooo damn serious... joy was like "dun play ar. i'm serious"
alamak dun spoil the fun la.. praying mantis cant hurt la.. it wont bite.. lol... so jeremy gave me a second offer 10 bucks!! wow!! of course i want la... but see they all so serious, i put it down.... den i guess jeremy told sulinn so she first one run away from me.. haha... den on the bus, jeremy was like "go do it, go go." but i din have it!!!!!! man.. 10 bucks... i bet God wanted to bless me... haha... i din seize the opportunity.. haiz....

so.. went back to yishun building where everyone was like talking about this whole year (2005) haha... they were like going "this whole year, i did not go to school... this whole year i wore the same shirt, underwear..." whateva! "den they were all like fighting to be first to do something for this whole year haha.... funny but dumb la.. "this whole year.. i din go home... "haha... so... at yishun, we made prank calls using my phone lol!! 6 am in the morning! den everyone voice blur blur one haha... den esther foong did the gay thingy.. now pple keep calling my phone, and i dun dare to pick up unless it's my fren! haha....

so.. nothing much la.. took the shuttle bus back, came home, wanted to use net but... it was down, so i watched the last samurai until like 8am den i went to bed haha....kk.. i want to go play games liaoz babye!!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

my story for today..

man.. today once again, i had to wake up like 7 am.. i cant even open my eyes.. wah... damn tired ar.. every morning like that can die ar... but bo pian ar.. training.. i have my commitment of attending training... so woke up got changed and went down to school..

sooo.... reached there first, as usual like the past few weeks... took out the rugby balls and played around... soon mannan came and slowly one by one everyone else arrive.. so.. played touch.. man... my fitness level has dropped a hell lot.. i am panting in a normal touch game!! wah.. so disappointed..

before sam arrived, muthu.. haha... muthu.... muthu's feet kenna stepped by vicknesh and he did the gorilla war cry hahahaha! so everyone bastard him... especially johnny.. haha... he like roars away loudly hahaha!! funny ar... vicknesh like step a lot of pple today. haha.. zhi wei also kenna. lol! for me.. nothing much tackle practice only today den i kenna bang real hard by navin on my left arm and my right shoulder haha... my left arm still hurts... wah... pain ar... the muscle... i think bruised.. haha...

so... after training bathe!! wah so shiok!! cold water haha.... shiok ar!! come out of the toilet feeling sooo refreshed... den i wanted to meet up with jess... but she busy i guess.. so anyway, zhida msg ask to meet cos he wants the biz plan thingy... so met up with him and passed him the disket. den we went for lunch.. wah.. so shiok!! we had beef noodles!! haha... nice ar!! den after tt, he go join his frens play pool. me leh, i decided to do some shopping on my own... but... i nvr collect allowance from my mama so no money... ask her deposit also never so i juz go see see and choose wad i want. go back some other day and buy.. went to X-craft look at bags, t-shirts and shirt.. amn.. i saw this shirt which is real cool and nice, but... one size L only.. i needed the XL... L too small.. haiz.... damn nice leh!! den i went around walking, popular, nokia care.... blah blah... den decided to drop by metro... so saw this levi's jeans i really like or should i say 2 levi's jeans haha... i wanna buy!! one $65 nia!! cheap ar! chiong!!!

somehow... i feel shopping alone is nice.. i kinda enjoyed myself there walking around and looking for my own stuff.. it's kind of better than with someone with me.. i guess i'm used to being alone already.. haha cool.... juz like in the past.. a lone ranger, but now, it's different. last time i lone until like damn lonely. now i have lots of frens but choose to have my own time out alone. feels good ar.. haha.. feels independant.. i dunnoe la... juz dun need pple to talk or laugh with, dun need girl fren for advice... dunnoe la.... juz feel nice... kind of like a time out from everyone else.. haha.. but i still love my frens la.. and i still like going out with them. =)

so.... went home at about 2+ den sleep till about 6... haha... wake up, help me mom do stuff den go bathe again... den kept typing blog till now.. haha... see all my hard work haha... muz read k! i put in a lotof effort! haha...

continuededed... (monday)

ok. finally the last of all my stories.... haha... before that juz a photo for u guys to see haha... at first i could not upload but now can le.. =)


so that's the photo taken by micheal of us and our trophies.. haha.. cool huh.. i got 2 trophies in 2 weeks. haha...

Monday...
ok. so monday another dumb day i had to wake up real early argh!!! i had to go to tampinese!! from west to east!! far ar... had this rugby thing. all we know is that there's gonna be filming and it's suppose to be a friendly game like some sort of training. but guess wad. we go there, we saw a hell lot of pple there of all ages!! wah! so was it a tournament?? u mean time for a third trophy ar?? hehe...

so... talked to hazwana and stuff. kinda found out that it was juz some try out thingy and xome kind of mod-touch??? wad de hell is mod-touch?? new rules?? guess not. we played ite in a 'mod-touch' game and it kinda was like a normal touch game. haha.. cool. had lots of fun. guess ite had a new team. so they were kind of inexperience?? i dunnoe la. but we kinda trashed them 7-3 with LC scoring hattrick.. i actually dived and scored 1 but the damn referee blur la.. if not 8-3 even more power! but sian la... the ite guy tell lie and referee belief. doh...

so... we like go there collect t-shirt, play and sit there whole morning. dumb! so we were like wah lao. come all the way to play one touch game!? some more i have not been having enough sleep and i chiong there like 7.45am.. i damn tired leh... wah lao... so go eat with them... dunnoe wad is saha's prob with me.. my hands suck and i noe. why u muz keep saying until so wad... wah kao... i say i'll practice right? saha. suck man. always play solo... he run the pattern in touch ar is sooo damn odd that u should never loop him. cos u pass him the ball, he run the other direction. loop him also no use. doh... then he noe leg got prob, he still think he can chiong and make it to try line. haha... i like never say anything bad against him and he's so anti me... those indian nathans. dunnoe wad is their problems la... he navin and muthu. like i got offend them... vick is nice la... cant they be like him!? cockanathans!

heck la.... i have to live with it through the A div.. so i'll juz keep my mouth shut as usual when they bastard me... used to it. so anyway, after lunch at mac, it was a damn long way back home... wah.. so sian... i fell asleep on the train.. the aircon was sooo soothing.. ah... haha.... nice... so monday after reaching home, i din do much la.. i counted my remaining stocks and money from the competition... wah.. got like $900 inclusive of prize money... but haven deduct cost of stocks la.. but not bad ar.. haha... at least each person can divide $100+ den gonna give school 20%.. like 100 bucks go to the school.. damn...

so.. later tonight den update about today... so come back later tonight babye!

continueded... (Sunday)

ha ok.... so it's been two days since sunday. i like almost forget everything that happened le... haha forgot to say but miss low (aww...) dropped by and supported us! mr lim bok seng and mr chee came too. haha..

Sunday...
haha... ok sunday morning as usual could not wake up early so planned meet zhida late. i remember when we reached, i was talking about a girl next to our stall.. cute cute one haha... dancer somemore. haha... her name's corrine. den when we were walking in, juz nice saw her.

ok so went to the stall... last day le... want to pia. so i chiong at the start pia like siao ar! den after some time, micheal came down and supported us. he stayed there for quite a long time. haha.. that micheal was like forever talking about how to xian girls... wah lao! i pai seh la. ask me go try. cos got this CHIJ girl cute ar. but i juz see only la. no intention of making friends or wad. but that micheal suddenly juz pull me. den bring me there. keep saying i got chance one but dunnoe how to walk the talk. hah... so he brought me there and showed me some moves. lol.. nothing la. at least nvr pao toh me or wad. but got to noe some details of her la... her name's jesslyn.we like use her as guinea pig testing haha.. so dumb..

ok. micheal also did like one girl next to our stall. her name was wyna. but i din noe them la... so i was like go over take their ice-cream challenge la. den micheal will like "no, not yet. not the correct time. i think muz go comb hair first." haha... crap. so i juz went over den he followed. so he like ok la. do same style as jesslyn. go there give flyers. so he pass me the flyers ask me to pass them out. i gave them one each den i said "behind got my no." haha... i juz said for fun la. dunnoe why also den they really turn to the back and look. den i said i was juz kidding. want my no. juz ask me. so micheal was like... wah.. got style sia. haha... crap la. i was juz being playful me. haha... i guess with girls that i dun have any, u know, i wont be so timid.. in fact i like quite daring haha...

so... micheal din do anything.. not even ice cream challange! so nvm la.. soon, time for prize presentation. let the girls go lor... me zhida stay... so waited impatiently for the results... suddenly pple start running back with trophies le. den i like " where's our group?" den they all come back le. wah. both also holding trophie! juz that ours bigger!! haha... we came in 3rd, jia li 4th.. not bad la. my whole row was like 2nd, 3rd, 4th haha..

so.. no mood to sell le.. prize money got liaoz, trophies got liao, no more judging... now try to clear.. lei long!!! so i damn sian, den i go jia li stall go self-service make those customized test tubes for some of my friends and the yusof ishak frens. i kept making and they also kept making, noise. keep asking me pay money. wah lao. so kiam. test tube so cheap nia.. we sharing profit some more leh. now i dun wan to share le la.. haha..

so anyway, i sian la.. so kept talking to yusof ishak pple... haha.. forgot to tell u all. in the morning before i came, syazana took photo with emily. haha.. they made the button thingy. so i was like wah!! cos in the picture, emily damn pretty!! she let down hair.. so i juz kept running up to syazana for fun. go see emily pic. hehe... den like cos i made those test tubes for them, they want to repay me. so they gave me that button but... like very pai seh so i din except. haha... but i juz stayed there hoping to get a chance to talk to emily. den hady was like standing next to me. den after a while, he sat down and said "tonight u very lucky. when u go home, very lucky. really." deni was like huh?? haha...

so.. i walked around between my stall and yusof ishak's helping them sell their stuff and selling my own... den micheal see me so sian den decided to perk me up. he took out this bottle of vodka. so i was like.. mmmm.... vodka... ( i dunnoe wad it taste like. seriously) so left a bit la. he say. take one shot and try. so i was like ok... den i opened and took half a shot. (heng i din clear bottle ) i din taste anything much initially, so i swirl it around my tongue and swallowed slowly. wah kao! my my whole face turned red! i was like wah!! can blow out fire ar!!! power!!! addictive sia.. so nice, i feel like taking another shot but zhida and micheal finished the rest la.. haha.. maybe ask kelvin help me buy cos i under age. hehe....

soooo... wad else ar... oh! i remember i went to play arm wrestling!! at emily's and yusof ishak stall there. cos i very sian ar. den i saw prasad hands power so i try. wah... all strong sia.. i tell u ar... i like lose 6 out of 10!! haha... actually some got use body weight la. but i din want to say cos very malu if like u tell them.. for me, my eyes always on opponent but opponent always head down. cos they using body to push. haha.. but fun la.. i malu a bit cos lose but no big la. later play again also win them haha...

it was like getting late.. man... i dun want to go home.... i was soooo reluctant. i was sticking with yusof ishak pple.. gonna miss em ar!! so i got this wax hand and got all the yishun pple to sign on it.. den got memory ar.. same for yusof ishak and the stall next to us.. so like gonna miss em all ar.. i juz spent time with em while everyone else were like desprately trying to clear stocks haha... when time to go home, i waited for the yusof ishak pple den go home with them.. as i was carrying all the stocks, i walk halfway, cannot ta han so decided to call my dad pick me. split up with the yusof yishak pple and went back to suntec lobby. those dolls la! we nvr sell finish den soooo heavy!! so went back den saw emily haha.. together with the rest of the yishun sec pple, they were waiting for transport i guess.. i juz sat at the other end and waited for my dad... was kinda hungry so took out the chocalate bar i bought from jesslyn earlier and had half of it.. man.. it was good stuff...

my dad came real shortly after yishun sec pple left. den i go home... so.. that's about it for my entrepreneur comp. now for monday. will write about it later.