28/08/06

man, IT'S SOOOO STINKING TRUE!

i saw this on corinne's blog and i cant help but do every personality tests u pple post haha! the bolded ones are those i feel are way too true to be true hahaha

the Adventurer

you chose AX - your Enneagram type is SEVEN. "I am happy and open to new things" Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world. How to Get Along with Me Give me companionship, affection, and freedom. Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter. Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories. Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am. Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people. Don't tell me what to do. What I Like About Being a Seven (omg, the whole of it) being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down being spontaneous and free-spirited being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun. (so true!) being generous and trying to make the world a better place having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures having such varied interests and abilities What's Hard About Being a Seven not having enough time to do all the things I want (yes!! why!?) not completing things I start not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship Sevens as Children Often are action oriented and adventuresome drum up excitement prefer being with other children to being alone finesse their way around adults (heh! yea man!) dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up Sevens as Parents are often enthusiastic and generous want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

28/08/06

"men need the support of other men..."

ha... through this one month, there's been much discussion in school and even on the papers about men being unable to share and cope with their problems.

why men do not share?
see i guess it's like whenever i have a problem, i would usually find someone to talk to. ha.. i used to talk to desmond a lot before he entered army, it's nice to like tell someone den to keep it all to myself.

i have many things i would like to share, yet i keep it to myself to try solve it. now a days, i just dunnoe who to share my problems with! hahaha.. i usually share with the females though, i mean, at this age, it's normal to feel comfortable opening up to them. however, we'd sometimes be seen as a loser if we shared to them, (to some la) and so i have to keep most of my feelings to myself, especially since i broke up with esther, i lacked one major output haha... females would feel insecure if we shared our problems. thus we just have to keep it to ourselves.

it's kinda sad now, unlike the past years, i had many pple, friends i could share with. soon, things change... u lose some because they are suddenly caught up in a relationship, both males and females. some, they have left one way or another, be it NS or in many other ways la. haha... others, over time, things began to become wierd. ha... well.. many things changed.

i'm thankful to all those who can tahan all my ranting. ha... (to think only girls rant) i mean, i just wanna get away! hahaha... but well, i cant.

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haha, it's funny, during maths test, i and sam started off a debate which got me thinking all the way home hahaha... miss wu wasnt around and we just began talking about ideal partners haha! soon, the whole class started talking and discussing the paper, when our voice levels increased due to the intensity of our discussion. hahaha..

ok, so i am being picky! hahaha... but i'm just finding qualities in someone that would satisfy my needs. (NOT IN THAT WAY) what we were discussing about was about intellectual needs.

and apparently, to find some one good looking, able to understand me, able to discuss with me than just do what i say, to be able to do stuff together, things that we would both enjoy. i mean, it's not too much to ask for right? hahaha...

ok, so sam said, i was being too picky and selfish (not in a bad way) in terms of choosing. hahaha... but at least i'd go all out for them. (or so she thinks)

oh well... it doesn't bother me much now. been long since i really loved someone. i mean, it's different between liking and loving. ha... when u're in love u'd just feel like everyday's a happy day whether they're there or not, u'd cry because of them, money is not an issue, u'd spend ur whole bank account on them if u need to, their needs come before urs, u'd miss them the moment they leave. hahaha...

kk. enough ranting for now.

This is my chem teacher =D

ok, well this is my chem teacher, miss lee. =D

well, i know all of u must be thinking tt i'm soooo dead cos i took my hand phone out and took a picture of my teacher who has her arms crossed and is about to give me a good lashing. HA! well, no!

she can be kinda mean, bitchy, fierce, naggy, irritating (or so they say, i feel the same way too sometimes but i dun say it out heh!). i forget all the bad stuff fast soooo... hahaha.. i dun really care.

however, she's a wonderful teacher who truly cares for us. at least she has my respect. and i'm glad to have her as my teacher. REALLY! =D

neways, i was sent out by her yesterday cos i was playing cards in class DURING BREAK!? man! i did not finish her work, but i went through them knowing what i want out of her lesson, so i was pissed not because she punished me, but cos i was made to leave her lesson and miss out on what i wanted to know. well, now, i cant be bothered to find them out anymore.

i mean, i was prepared, everyone else did not do their work. but cos i was playing cards, during BREAK, and i did not complete it, i was sent out. -_-"

she only allowed us to (kept emphasizing... -_-) play in the toilet where she doesn't see it....... (hmmm.. idea!)

SOOOO...... i wanted to try it once.

I, HAR~DO GABE decided to play cards in the toilet!
FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!~!~!~!~!
(and ricky martin's livin' la vida loca comes on)

"HELLO~ EVERYBODY!! FOOOOOOO!!! I hardo gabe, shall play try to play magic in the men's toilet!"

I CAN'T GET THE VIDEO TO WORK!!!! MAN....

so we dragged a table into the toilet, took out our decks and prepared ourselves for battle!

ok, everyone said i looked a lil nerdy with the specs on today. ha...



ok, i did not want to put this pic on, but look at vijey! (the indian guy) MAN HE LOOKS FARNY!


HAHA, i'm suppose to be "hard gay" here, but look at jey!


oh well, in the in end, the battle ended with a great victory by non other than, urs truly =DDD hahahaha....

i wanted to show miss lee the videos after school, but she was just too busy with the others so, maybe some other day. hahahaha...

well.... in the end, i shall bear no grudge on miss lee after she said her lesson was boring without me during afternoon consultation where i was once again playing a fool. (had 2 lessons that day, was chased out on the first one during school hours, the other one was after school hours, consultation class.) hahaha...

guess, i'll NEVER grow up, and i love myself this way! =D

24/08/06

: lousy? come on! u are cuter den u think u are

me? cuter than i think i am!?
(HEE! see that cheeky smile on my face.)

ah well... i somehow am lousy la... haha... maybe i need to read up on COURTING GIRLS 101 HA!

okok, tt's not the point. the right one will come in time to come. haha... i'm not worrying now. except, it's truly much better to face the world with someone else u know u can count on! =D

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ok, so much for COURTING GIRLS 101.

check this out!

TO SLEEP

AND

NOT GET CAUGHT BY TEACHER

101

this is a documentary done by gabriel low from 04S3. he has braved through much scolding (from his friends), risking getting his hp confiscated just to bring u this guide on sleeping in school. haha...

LESSON 1:

sleeping during lecture is the best as the crowd covers u up.

for lay kuen's sake, i cleared her pics, but ah wei! hahaha!!he wouldn't mind right! =P

now you're gonna die!!!"

LESSON 2:

this is the ninja's sneaky technique of pretending to be reading but in actual fact, they are sleeping. it's to catch their teachers off guard.

ninjas are also trained in tactical warfare, they are taught that "the safest place are the most dangerous ones."

so they sleep right in front of the teacher and not get caught!


and when u combine em both, they become a formidable weapon against the teacher! =DD

ok, i think i should have censored the teacher's face, but well. this entry is about students sleeping, not the teacher. i do not blame the teacher, cos the students, they are just too good!

LIFE SAVING LESSON IF U EVER DECIDE TO USE THESE TECHNIQUES!

LESSON 3:

IF IN AN EVENT U GET CAUGHT! (by ur teacher, or worse, the principal!)

1. and u wake up saying "WHAT!?"

ur friends are all in shock and u turn and realised that it's u teacher/principal, then u do a quick reply:

"the measurement of power! AH! i finally remember the SI unit for watts!!!"

then look at him/her and and smile.

2. u panic!

keep ur head down, calm down, and then give a loud "AMEN!"

sit back, and REALLY BEGIN TO PRAY REAL HARD! hope ur teacher falls for it and walks away, or if she knows that u faked it, PRAY HARD that she finds it funny! hahaha....

ok! so that's all for sleeping 101.

23/08/06

I NEED A GUITAR SOOOO BADLY!!!

now tt i've found my harmonica, the things i can do with it and the songs i can play with it is starting to bore me... but it's good for putting me to sleep. no more pills!! HEH!

22/08/06

so i went for my second check up today.

as i sat there, i wondered what tests they were gonna be doing and stuff, end up, i just had a short chat with the doctor before we were done. HA!

ok, so all these about me being in pes D was cause they had no idea where to put me. (thanks to my high myopia) so i went in, and the doctor said, "not to worry, nothing serious or anything......."

he was quite a nice guy, had that charisma thingy with him. haha.. den he went on "so because of ur high myopia, i think i might have to put u in pes B. but if u want, u could volunteer to join the commandos... or the navy diving unit."

OF COURSE I WANTED TO JOIN THE NAVY DIVING UNIT LA!

so i told him the NDU, he turned to the comp "hmmm.... but it'll be hard for u to dive with ur specs on haha..." (like duh! den why u make me excited for no reason!)

i'm like "oh."

"i can see that u are disappointed" me ---> -_-"

of course i told him about how much i just wanted to join the navy, but to be a diver, man, i soooo wana learn to dive!

ah well. then he went on, "you could join the commandos but ur spectacles would be much of an obstruction. Alright then! i'll put u in pes B. u could still join the navy though."

ok, but actually it does not really bother me la haha.. i really hope to get into the navy cos i'd most prob love it there more than being on land. (or so i assume) and i LOVE THE SEA! (i do, i do, i-do i-do i-do) haha... we'll just have to see where they post me now.

ok, then i went down to outram to donate blood. was kinda fun la. haha... i have pics of my mom, but i'm just soooo lazy to upload.

ok, shall go play games. DEN study HAHA!

21/08/06

O M G

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

haha... this is funny! i saw this on corinne's blog.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

can u believe it!? it initially said that i would be missed by transexual prostitutes on my first try, i was like OMG! so i had to try again, and then i realised tt it generated on random. hahaha, so i just had to try it a few more times =D

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

those who know about my toenail HEH!

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

HAHAHAHAHA!!! I SOOOOOO WOULDN'T MIND DIE LAUGHING!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! die happy... =P

20/08/06

hahaha, i just watched this really cute show called "train man" about this nerd who has never had a girlfriend, found one cos he was "brave" when a drunkard was disturbing the passengers. hahaha... really funny. it's simply cute.

so like the nerd suddenly went for a make over and he loooooooked....... SUPERB! HA!

oh well... anyway, it just reminded me of how lousy i am hahahaha!!!

i can be all cool around girls i do not like but around those i like, my brain goes all whirly twirly. i say things that don't click. hahahahaha... my tongue gets twisted like 30 times and when i finally untwist it, it's too late. hahaha...

i can't look them in the eye, and i feel uneasy. so i have to say, THAT NERD WAS REALLY COURAGEOUS! it's a really sweet show as well. how his story actually caused the people who helped him through the process of courting actually change. AND IT'S A TRUE STORY!!! seemed too unreal. haha...

oh well... i just liked the show a lot. i wanna watch it again if i had the time. but it's on tv, not a dvd and like ha.. i should be studying!!!!

i was just searching on this show and apparently there are quite a few different versions of it. haha... but the one i watched, i think it's cuter than the rest HA!

neways a short music vid on tt show. enjoy!

19/08/06

"a smile on my friend's face is worth twice of that on mine."

i simply love the simple thing of making a friend smile. to be nice to everyone at least once (this includes enemies, if i even have them HA!).

well, i simply love to know tt my friend's all happy, and the feel of being appreciated, ah! it's heavenly!! wuahahahahaha...

to add a little spice to someone's life,
to be that little spark in the darkest times.
to just make sure you're all fine.

it feels good to be that little angel.

to know that someone's life may have changed because u existed.
to be a bridge when there are gaps.
to build a foundation that finally we'd all grow.

it's just soo nice and fulfilling to be some one who can make a difference.

i have one dream, yes! i want to like go for some adventure!! hahaha.. i want to like hike through the whole grand canyon for a fund raising show or something. YES!!! i suddenly remember telling my friend about this when i saw the news today about some singaporeans trying to break a world record by cannoeing round sg in 30 hrs.

yes.... i realy wish i could.

ah... i feel so happy. friends are precious to me! =D

P.S. this entry became random towards the end. haha...

My Grandfather's Clock

i'm just in love with this song.

I FOUND MY HARMONICA!!!!! =DDDD and so, i've been practicing this song for quite some time. ha... i just play it over and over.

the lyrics is nothing romantic, but it's soooo sweet, the tune of it, it just makes u feel sooo nice.

HAHAHA!!! and the japs are making fun of hirai ken. if u watch 2 videos below, one is an increased in speed, (in the latter) and he would sound like a women. you can hear a lil of that "chipmunk" sound. hahahaha!!!



then in another variety show, they slow down a female singer's (hitoto you) voice and now, it sounds like hirai ken! AMAZING!



sadly, i do not have the translation. but well, it's understandable i guess. haha... just skip their initial dialogue start and watch the part where they use some machine to slow it down. haha..

only if time stopped.

before i begin, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER FOONG!
tolly forgot about it. like all the other appointments, i forgot!! i'm soooo sorry. there's suppose to be a party ya, haha... i'm just too caught up with school and back home, i kinda block everything else.

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well, it's the time when i feel all sooo drained, empty and lost, i know what i should be doing, who i should be talking to, but yet, i choose not to do so. it's just.... i'm lost.

i simply feel soooo empty. i know why, yet i dun do anything about it. dun wan to, dun wish to.

i tend to get stuck in my own dream world, some times spending this time thinking about stuff, or like reflecting on all the stupid things i do every day. haha... some times it makes me laugh.

i just want to be alone, in the dark, stay there, not move. nvr wake up, time just stops. though i dun wish to sleep forever, i just wish to do things i really want to do, yet can't due to limitations.

i'm trying so hard to study but yet, it's just not me, it's not me to sit down and study. i'm forcing myself to be someone i do not want to be. doing things i HATE doing. i struggle, yet i try. i force myself, i tell myself i must.

i work the best i can, staying smiley and all happy, but, i'm really happy. only when it comes to such a time at home. i just hate everything. i try so hard, yet nothing budges. i force, i push, i try and focus. nothing moves cos time stopped. i'd as well splatter my head on the wall and then try starting.

i'll kill myself and do anything i must to get past this crazy life of mine. soon after this, NS, then work. i can nvr stop to see my world. i feel manipulated by the government, like pawns in a mjor plan, in a country where humans are the only resource, where we fight to strive for a better future, where we slog all day to improve our lives not realising that we live shorter lives.

yet, we have no choice, this is our fate, our life. no matter how u try to change it, u'd nvr get what u want unless u have $$$$. i do not wish to run away, but to make full use of the remainder life i have in me to fulfill my destiny in life, to strive for the best, at the same time to explore the world when time stops. yes, when time stops.......

15/08/06

if u watched life story today, it was abigail chay.

if u do not know who she is, she is the one who always acts as the ugly and freaky one (just being factual here) in shows.

yea, it was kinda freaky at first when i learned about her story, how as a young boy, she'd have this feminine side of her and change her gender.

though it was freaky, the show expressed the unconditional love of her parents which was extremely touching. i mean, the kind of trauma they had to face, and the support they actually gave to abigail...

man, it's wonderful, how much our parents love us, yet we some times do not realise or like take their love for granted.

i was thinking of being a filial grandson a few days ago, hahaha.. which i nearly got myself into sooo much trouble. i just commented about staying with my grandma, through this 2 months to focus on my A's as there'd be no distractions, and i'd get to spend time with her while she's still around.

i love her a lot. and i use to remember those days when she'd buy me breakfast whenever i stayed over and all. or actually, my late granddad would. yea... i din know how to appreciate them initially, i always see my granddad as some one who'd pamper and love me. but i seldom reciprocate these feelings.

after he died, i realised how much i did not love him enough, and it hurts me so much. wish i could turn back time, he'd be the happiest granddad on earth!

anyway, if i do stay at my grandma's place, i'd prolly die living that olden days kind of life HAHA! last time it's because of boys club and the playground tt i stayed over. now i'm all grown up!

oh well....

14/08/06

sometimes, i just make myself feel soo dumb. ha... a dumbdud.

i just think of what i did/said, stare into blank space and reflect.

i just can't help it, but turn myself into a fool.

i just dun know how to react all of a sudden. haha...

especially in front of you.
MAN!

lay kuen, (u might have forgotten what we talked about)
i guess in the end, i'm still me, lousy o'me. hahaha...
i'm just lousy at such stuff, i tell myself i many times tt i do not want to try.
i just make myself look dumb!!! hahaha...

i'll just wait for the rabbit to hit the tree and grab the opportunity. HAHAHAHA!!!

oh well, time for bed.

The Afters - Beautiful Love

the afters simply rock!

11/08/06

ah, man! hahaha... i totally forgot tt i have a dinner at gallery hotel!!!! man...

i dunnoe why but i just dun seem to remember such stuff. maybe also because we had no meeting point and all, so in my mind there's no one to meet.

hahaha... some how, i need to be reminded constantly, i mean, it's a school day man, haha... i'm too caught up with the worry of school work, i'll simply forget all else, especially care group!! hahahaha....

i dun understand what i'm doing also. i mean, i know nothing much's gonna come out of my A's yet i'm slogging and trying what i can, yet everything makes my effort feel as if it's to no avail with the results i obtain. i thought i knew.

nowadays, i have conflicting thoughts of studying, i just do not want to study, though deep inside i want to. hard to explain. i just dun see the result coming out of my hard work, maybe cos i did not study them all and also wrong method? but in that specific topic i studied on, i did quite well, except the others.... argh! i thought it was enough...

maybe i need a close friend, or good friends, or who ever who would remember me and keep reminding me, to meet. maybe if i had a girlfriend who'd remind haha, (i'm not hinting anyone or what ya! hahaha) i guess, some times i can be more caught up with friends from school and those outside tt i'd just forget about church activities.

it's so sad la, last time (prolly like almost 6 yrs ago!) church was so much cooler with all those guys, but things changed, we all grew up, pple left. haha... and church and what ever activity we had was of my top priority, cos i just wanted to see everyone, i wanted to be with everyone.

but now's still quite fun too, maybe i just dun appreciate the present hahaha... video guys, den there's dot, joce, all the new lil ones whom i can clique with cos of the children things we play HA! jadon joshua all. HAHA!!!

ok la, at least kailing, kannan and lay kuen still remembered me when i was suspended. HA!

I'M SOOOO ABSENT MINDED!!! can't believe i forgot all about the dinner!!!

like just now, I COULD STILL GO FOR DINNER WITH LAY KUEN LA!!! ARGH!!!! i was soooo hungry and since it was on our ay home, we stopped at al ameen. hahahahaha!

argh, stupid me. feel so useless, cos i even forget about home work i need to complete. maybe i chose not to remember them. i feel like there's this mental blockage. irritating, but i'll survive!

10/08/06

the bike trail is the dark green line. (i'm so proud of myself for completing most of the trail for the first time. had lots of praise from the dudes i met =DD)


i passed by many squirrels in which i tried to take thier pics but they were too shy. i saw monitor lizards, so huge, the length of my arm!!! they too ran real fast when i got off my bike to take their pics.

ahh!! i forgot to take the pic of the flowing fresh water!!! SOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! like a little river. i did not expect myself to go so far and not turn back. wanted to take the pictures as i turned back.



remember the last time i blogged and i said i stopped at the stairs to continue the trail to the foot of bukit timah hill, this time i decide to forget about getting lost, climb that stairs and go on. (i had the picture of that like 20 step flight of stairs, dunnoe where's it now. zzz..)

this time, i reached the foot of bukit timah hill!!! WHOOOOOO!!! and on the way, i met some dudes who led me back. THANK GOD! cos i was indeed lost and they were heading my way.



we had to continue back from the foot of bukit timah hill to bukit panjang. and the trail this times, was twice as treacherous as the first half!! as u can see, we had to stop as terrence needed to puke. and he puked soooo much! like 4 times with chunk loads of food. looked like eggs. haha...

i was soooooooooooooooo tired, climbing all that slopes, determined not to get down from my bike so as to follow up with my new-found-friends. (shawn, in blue and terrence in white) they are cool dudes. shawn, he's REAL GOOD! he climbed a slope soooooo steep, my jaws literally dropped!

i tried, and i went 1/3 of it HAHAHAHA!!

and so we went on, going down steep slopes which are sooo cool! the labour of our hard work from climbing all that steep slopes. ha... but going down slopes need skill too. terrence fell on 2 slopes, i skidded (but did not fall) on one of the steepest. BUT IT WAS SOOO FUN! my back wheel kept skidding down, it looked like i was starring in the tokyo drift. shawn was like "woah woah WOAH!" i was like "WHEEEE WHOOO WOOOHOOO!!!!"

my favourite, the tunnel. a DARK tunnel which echoed as i cheered through it. hahaha!!! I LOVED IT!



this is a picture from the park. steep slope? AS IF! the ones i went down in the trail were 3 times steeper! my body felt as if it was falling off the front! i was soo scared on one of them. or rather the steepest of all the steep slopes. my hand griped the brakes so tight, u'd find blisters on the sides of my thumbs!

finally, 3/4 round the whole trail, (which means, bukit panjang to the foot of bukit timah hill and back in a circle) terrence could not take it, so we detoured out onto main road, just after rail mall. about 4 km to my house. as much as i wanted to complete the trail, i was relieved we were out of it. i was dying. HA!

haha.. they were so amused at how "no fear" i was hahaha... i did not put on any helmets or anything. and i went on alone which is a big NONO in this trail cos it's too quiet. u can die there and be found the next morning hahaha...

also, as it was my first time, they kept praising me for being able to complete most of the trail. =D this kept me going and made me feel soooooo proud of myself!!! =DD

SEE! I'M SOOOO PROUD OF MYSELF!!! I FEEL SOOO GOOD! HAHAHAHA!! (high I ar, cannot help it =DDDD)

hehe i took this pic as we were cycling on the road. if my dad knew, he'd kill me. (now, what's tt traffic rule about no handphone while driving again?)

yea.. OUT!!! whee!!! i was sooooo thirsty! i made a HUGE mistake not bringing water, i covered a longer trail then both of them, cos they did not come in from the park. and by the time we were 2/3 on the trail, they had finished all their water. SO OF COURSE I WAS DYING!!!

i got my maid to bring me money HEH! i did not bring my wallet. (how dumb)

bought myseld a well deserved, 1.5 litre of H20! yippee!! and tt marked the end of my adventure.

10/08/06

my family's all caught up watching this korean drama, heaven's tree. it stars park shin hye, who's amazingly pretty, and in the show, many of her expressions just reminds me of this friend of mine... ha... watching her act is like seeing my friend in the show. ha... but i dun realy watch it, only when i'm taking breaks haha..



ha.. the show's really dramatic. like almost all the parts i watch are sooo sad, so much desperation. ah... korean dramas ar..

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anyway, these days have been really windy! OOH! NICE!

last night, as i look up, and the curtain's floating abouve my head, i thought, one day, if i were to leave for some where far for like forever or the day i die, i'd wish i could be a wind chime on the window instead. one which makes soft gentle ringing sounds, sooo pleasant to the ear, that'll make the one i love feel so much at ease, so peaceful....

i wish i had a chime on my window pane. i could just imagine the sound of it last night, as i slowly fell asleep. that soft gentle ringing in my ears. soo pleasant...

well... all this's making me feel all moody. ha... so i'll just continue with my other stuff... ha!

09/08/06

ah... national day!!!

today was almost a perfet, wonderful day. the kind u feel like u're living to the fullest, but! i just had to be lazy in the morning. i woke up at 5.30, suppose to go to macritchie to fish and then take some pictures, cos i realised the other time during cross country tt macritchie has really beautiful sights. man...

so neways, i nearly spoilt the day if i did not go play street soccer with the guys! ha! thank God i went. so at least i excersised. hahaha!! =)




and then, some other people joined us, they had 2 girls amongst their team of 5, and they were rather good! the girl there, scored one too!! hahaha..



actually there's suppose to be one more with jonathan squating hahaha... i was gonna name that pic 'pung sai' but i showed it to him and we had a looooong game of rugby. hahaha... but it felt good, grapling and tackling in the soil. ahh... miss playing rugby.

i remember thightening my arms around his legs and he could run no where. soooo funny. hahaha... he's bigger than me, but last time when we were younger, i used to be able to overpower him, now, amongst the fats, there are muscles. hahaha... was challenging but fun.

in the end, we had to go to dec's place to shower. we were all soiled, and our skin itched from the grass.

then i realised, THEY HAVE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL HOME, WITH SUCH A BEAUTIFUL VIEW! i loved the view of the sky from dec's room.



i regret not bringing my SLR!! i was thinking of taking some soccer pics, then they said they had just enough pple, so i thought i wouldn't get to take some photos. who knew some neighbourhood kids joined us, and i did not play the next half. man...

i lost the first pic of the one above which was waaaaay much nicer. how it contrasted with his windows and the sky. in this photo, i actually, widened the window. and the previous one, did not have that little bit of the hdb flat showing. ha...

someday, someday, i'll go back and take the picture again, this time, with my SLR. ha..

ok... today's nice... almost meaningful. and i did not study much yet i do not regret! =D

08/08/06

argh!!! i'm soo sad cos i missed the over night hike at macritchie in which i was soooooo looking forward to... man! i'm sooooo sad!

no one msged, no meeting no nothing? oh well.... man....

anyways, i'm indulging myself in work and of course, THE AFTERS!!! whoooo!!! hahaha... their song, love lead me on is nice, but the album, it's superb! i love their type of genre. whoo hoo!!! now i would have no regrets buying such a cd. hahaha...

and i think my dad's gonna get me a zen vision, though a zen v will do... i just feel tt i don't deserve it. my results dun show. i am still playing comp games here and there, i'm not pushing myself hard enough to deserve it. some how, i wish he'd forget i popped the question of buying an mp3. and i won't mind if he did.

anyway, taking a short break from just 10 mcqs~! hahahahaha!!! ok i have to go back! ha!

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brother john's sermon's real good, i know i'll never have tt loneliness or bored or what so ever negative thought ANYMORE!! WHOOO!!! the joy of the Lord is my strenght! =DD

i am assured of God's love, and what do i need more than God? my friends?? HA! they fail me everyday!!! hahaha.. but i don't blame them, cos i fail them at some point too. no one's perfect!

but it's nice to be remembered. =DDD like when i was suspended, and lay kuen and kai ling came up to visit me, with a gift from kannan. hahaha.. COOKIES!!! thx man.

then there's dorothy who wrote me tt lil note, encouraging me, thx.... THX!

at least i'm still remembered by some when i'm not around, at least there are some who will still ask "where's gab" when i'm not around. haha.. =)

and i loved to be cheered at! HAHA... like when i went up the bus. haha. it was sarcarstic la, but hahaha... it's a long and darn funny story of how the bus uncle scolded one of my school mates for not 'tapping' his card and then i managed to catch the bus cos of tt haha... and so they cheered. LOL? hahaha..

okokok ENOUGH! i'm soo happy despite my disappointment

08/08/06

thanks to miss chow wow, who introduced "The Afters" i couldn't help but to finally go get their cd! hahaha...

was in town after sooo long doing some shopping haha... and i finally got their cd. ha, hard to tell tt they're a christian band huh. ha...

came home, ripped open the cd, plugged my player in to my surround system and carried it at my ears! hahaha!



ah... i've gotta get studying now. had fun out today... ha...

i woke up at 7pm after a loooong "afternoon" nap ha!

had one of the nicest dream, though it has nothing to do with anything i wish for or like erm, fantasize about HAHA!!

ok, i was just at beach with my family and some of my parent's friend's families, believe it or not we were initially stranded by the beach, den me and some other guys (dunnoe who they were prolly the kids from the pther families) began playin touch rugby! no wonder i woke up feeling tt i've done some excersise lol!

ok, so like after tt my mom called, i'm like "aww.. MAN! ive gtg" and left - IN A CAR!? hahaha...

ok, dropped by some fast food, and when i was ordering, they said something about needing someone to do some pamflet editing, like change the dates or something. so i said i'd work and was hired on the spot. haha... during my "interview" i was asked 2 questions in which i forgot the first, but the second made me laugh when i woke up, cos my answer impressed the manager!?

she asked me, "there's not enough space for ur name on the name tag." so i just said, "why don't u reduce my name so tt my surname can fit." she replied "WONDERFUL!" i'm like huh!? -_-"

she seemed impressed. hahahaha... oh well.. need to go begin on my work.

can't wait for either tmr or national day for our overnight hike at macritchie!! haha.. i did not sign up or anything though.. wonder if i need to. but oh well! i'll just appear and act blur! hahahaha... hope lots of u are going. if not, i wont go too.. ha...

kk off!

06/08/06

so like some times u wonder, how wondeful God is tt day after day he leaves behind his love message for u. and like any other times, how the sermon some how just seem to tie in to our daily needs.

i'm truly surprised tt through this period of time, with the many services i've skipped, i often some how go to the services which in some ways reach out to me. and it's sooo tinking wonderful how God knows. yes he does.
i've got to try to make it more of a point to go to church, because i love God, and because i want to see his purpose working in my life so tt i wont drift too far. (long sentence haha) i also pray that through hat ever struggles i go through, God will see me through, and tt i would have that joy of the Lord. (like always! hahaha) just tt i'm much sadder these days ha.

ok! so thanks to colleen for the mind map! haha.. man, i need it. and i'm gonna create one myself too. and yes, to dot! soooooo stinkng nice of u! haha... a letter/note/greeting card like this just makes me smile ha!

which reminds me, through these period of stress and boredom, i've been writing letters to some of my friends to like catch up with em and all, and i'm soooo happy tt some of these letters i sent, made them happy, or helped solve problems, especially, THAT specific letter. hahaha... u make sound as if it's some divine opportunity provided by God, maybe it is la =). i'm happy all is resolved! REAL HAPPY! makes me smile when i think about it. =DD

ok, more letters to some of u when i have the time!!! =D and stupid jackie, she thinks i'm stalking her when i asked for her add to send her the letter... haiz.... oh well! dinner!!!

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see, when u're stressed, u tend to become suicidal and thinking tt becoming spiderman is the solutions to all ur problems hahaha...

how i wish i was a superhero hahahaha...

i can't stand it, i don't know how to do elucidation for chem, and like, i TOTALLY FORGOT ALL OF STATS! i'm like stats king in class at the start of the year and now, i'm like demoted to stats goon. HA! man...

i am trying soooo very hard to get it right and i'm soooo distracted. my morning was rather unfruitful. argh!

well, i'll take a short break and try again. stats test tmr, if i dun get it right today, i'm doomed to be down for another 1 and a half hour consultation.

man...

05/08/06

ok, so i was suspended yesterday, so stupid la. hahaha... vijey said something which was soo funny. miss lee asked me, why i was suspended, and vijey said "gabriel think he angel, angel angel ah, why will get suspended!" hahaha... yea, i DID wonder why i was suspended, i found out later it's because i skipped detention class which was because i skipped maths lesson sometime back. hahaha....

soooo... this is what did for the 4hrs+ suspension, besides studying tt is ha...



hmmm.. not so clear, haha.. but it is DOTTED out. literally! haha.... it prolly took me a million dots to complete this picture. but it's real size is prolly about 10cm in lenght. haha.. the picture makes it look BIG.

i just had too much time during suspension... ha..

then there's another pic. during parent's night, while waiting for my parents to come, i also had 4hrs++ to do another drawing. aha...

my class through my hp cam,



and then, the class through my eyes,



and then i realised, besides the tables, the rest of the class is inproportionate in my drawing. haha... also, if u realised, i used scribbled lines for almost every line. almost non of them are straight lines, however in the pic osome of em do. ha...

hmmm, i just realised that for a picture to be real cool, (to me tt is) we should not use the conventional of drawing lines. haha... i think dots are really nice, like the seashell. and the dots, was an inspiration after seeing christina joy's picture. hahaha..

oh well... this is what i love to do when i'm bored and not studying =D

05/08/06

ALRIGHT!

i dunnoe what to do today! hmmm, i feel like spending every cent in my bank account to buy myself things i want den claim half of it from my parents heh!

feel like going for a shopping spree!!! hahaha.... make me sound so much like a girl. however, i dunnoe where i want to go and all... i've spent 30 mins idling, planning my day but to no avail!!!

hmmm.... i was thinking of asking a friend out, maybe later la. if not, den maybe go down to city hall, get some stuff, den to like, plaza sing, blah blah, I DUNNOE! i just wanna go for a walk, ANYWHERE! hahaha....

today seem to make me feel so free. oh ya, i still have to check if there's edge today. well... am off!

02/08/06

do take ur time and read.
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ah... just watched a documentary on some haunting thing, and i am awed at the awesome redemption power of christ!

this show is about how this certain place is haunted, which got me thinking because there are no such things as ghost, BUT there ARE demons amongst us.

but according to their account, the spirit/demon din want to move on cos it was afraid of it's eternal judgement in fire. which means, eternal burning of flames, in hell.

this brave guy, stayed in that haunted bar to protect the owner, and i honour him for his bravery. he in fact got posessed. and how ironic. a psychic who believes she can speak to spirits, definitely NOT a christian, suggest tt they call a minister down to deliver tt posessed man.

and in fact, when the pastor came down, he cast the demon out and best of all, the man said, he felt change, like something he has never felt before. and this touched my heart. because almost all christians have their lives changed like never before... just like me.

i know i am different from the rest. those who dunnoe christ, and unlike the past, i now dun really weep for them, and i feel sad. but i do feel sad for my friends who dunnoe christ. to think of them being blinded, burning for eternity in hell. i use to cry in bed because of the fact they die without me giving them a chance to know christ.

in sec 2, i had this change in my life, a depressed child to someone always cheerful, someone, whom i feel i dun get involved in the world. i learned self control, i dun go beating pple up for no reason like in pri sch hahaha... i controlled my emotions more, i learn to forgive and forget real fast. pple say i am naive because i trust others too much. but no matter how many times my friend may betray me, i still loved them. i grew to love pple around me, care about them.

i know i changed. i remember how i dreamt tt one of my friend, weijing died, though i used to be condemned by him and of course some others in the same gang, i never hated any of them. in my dream, i was heart broken, and i cried, HYSTERICALLY! haha... when i woke up, i was still crying. to make things funnier, i went onto msn to look for him, and found his contact MISSING! i was soooo worried, i immediately asked a classmate for his e-mail add so tt i can add him. haha...

yea, he's not dead. THANK GOD!

i'm so happy another friend of mine, yong hian got saved. i used to tell him about christ, trying to convince him. but it never got through. one day, he got saved, and like all christians say, his life was changed. man... this is sooo heart warming... i just love to know of friends getting to know christ. it makes my day. at least here, i am not forcing anyone to convert or anything. i want them, to know christ as their friend on their own.

not forgetting roy sim! he wanted something in life, brought him to church numerous times, and he slowly began singing the songs during worship and he sensed this feeling, i know tt feeling. =) deep inside he wanted to know this Jesus, but he was afraid of his mom. i remember praying for him, giving him advice.

soon, he was soooo excited! he told me how he has changed, converted, he knew christ personally as a friend, and with his SAJC mates, they attended church. MAN! i was overjoyed!

praise the lord... i miss those times, time when i was really close to God, times when God used me.... everyone wants to be used by God, it feels nice.... nice to know he has a purpose for u. nice to know tt u have authority over sin and death. knowing tt my sins can be washed clean, and death is nothing sorrowful.

i miss u Jesus.

P.S. I AM NOT STRESSED! hahaha.... i am in fact, happy. =DD