Friday, April 28, 2006

28/04/06

alright.. now i am beginning to regret signing up to go to batam. haha... i've got loads of work and tests coming up and i'm stuck in batam. it'll be kinda dumb to bring my books there... haha...

ALRIGHT!

the last time, what inspired me to write an entry about how much girls are special and tt they are to be respected was triggered by my maid.

this time, i'm once again inspired by her to blog down how much it pays to be honest, a humble person with a contrite spirit.

and sooo... my maid washes the car every sunday morning, and on each occassion, she would meet this lady and would greet her. however, that lady often juz nodded her head and continued with her work while her husband would reply with a hi to my maid.

on a sunday morning 2-3 weeks ago, she walked to the washing bay to fill the pails with water before going to the car to wash it. there, she found a brand new samsung handphone. probably worth about $400. of course she was delighted! it's so rare tt she is able to set her hands on something sooo advanced and so she kept it in her pocket and continued filling up the pails.

just then she realised tt lady walking up and down, all around and suddenly realised tt she might have been looking for her handphone. inside my maid's heart, she was fighting such a great battle. because of her guilty conscious, her feets and hands went cold, her heart began beating so fast.

in the end, my maid called out to the lady, not even knowing if the phone belonged to her and asked if it was hers. indeed, the lady was looking for her handphone. the lady was overjoyed, and rewarded my maid with $50. soon, the lady gave her a new pair of shoes, a new blouse and pants. best of all, an aquaintance; a new friend found.

now, the lady would often greet my maid first when they see each other. with the money rewarded, my maid could pay up her missions faith pledge by faith. indeed God blessed her.

this is another story and it was before she gave her heart to christ.

my maid was working at a hotel in the past. one day, as she was cleaning up an american man's room, she found a stack of money on the floor. she stepped on it so that her partner would not know, and den picked it up and placed it in her pocket.

at that time, the american dollar exchange rate was really high. and with all that money, she could actually quit her job and go back home.

she kept the money with her for the night, thinking of what she wanted to do with it. as the night went on, she couldn't sleep. she was feeling so guilty, she couldn't eat. for one whole day, she asked herself if what she did was right.

the next day, she decided to go up to the room, and return the man his money. the man was sooo happy he told her that he would get her anything her children wants. at tt time, her child wanted a bicycle. and a bicycle costs a lot of money in indonesia. she told the man her chidren needed a bicycle.

and so, the next day, the american man brought her children out shopping. bought them a bicycle and once again, she has made another friend.

aint it just so wonderful to be honest and be blessed? it's a win win situation and it pleases God.

i am simply touched by her stories especially her faith. how God is working in her life ever since she came into my family and accepted christ. i really want to be like her. with God's hand of blessing upon my life. i really thsnk God for my maid i'll be real sad the day she leaves us though we are not very close but i love her around. make me feel less lonely at home. she's like a mother who cares too much.

i hope this 2 story has been such a blessing to those of u reading. i have one more story about something else but i'll write it when i get back, or in the morning before i leave.

batam... 3 days... haiz... i muz catch up with my work!

Thursday, April 27, 2006

27/04/06

WE WERE MEANT TO WIN NY!
we'll wait and see who laughs last...

hmmm... alright, beat HCI today! haha... i thought it was 37-0 but the ref said 42-0 sooooo HA HECK!

haiz... ok, i know i said i'd let farid play, BUT! i want to join the fun too!!! ah... we beat HCI, but i wasn't a part of it... =( ha... yea... did not play today...

my last year ar, ah chuan!!! sob sob... boo... heh...

thought i could play some new position or something, but my hopes dropped at the second half.. ha... forget it la...

no more hattricks for me... (though kira did a hattrick today!) haha... only ah wei and kira know my hattrick dream with undead players hahaha... and tt we lost to NY... haha...

awww... heck la! no more hattrick!!!! ARR!!! CJ next. quite sian feeling la... but i hope tt we'll play in PA for plate finals. or if our appeal make it, play SA for 3rd, 4th placing. den i'll prolly get to see corinne again hahaha... been sooooo long....

THEY ARE PLAYING BAD DAY ON AMERICAN IDOL!! HAHA...
have fallen in love with this song...

I INDEED HAVE MANY DAYS... HA!!! PROLLY COS I SIMPLY SUCK! HAHAHA!!!

ah... forget it...

wanna get some rest and then DOTA!!! and for the first time, i get to go home early on friday!!!! wooot!!!!!

will be in batam the next 3 days after fri.... see u pple back on tues. =)

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

25/04/06

dedicated to the titans!
daniel powter - bad day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Had a bad day
Had a bad day


WE WERE MEANT TO WIN. WE KNEW IT. =)

Saturday, April 22, 2006

22/04/06

haha.. i wanted to do this at the start of this year, but i keep forgetting!!!

ok, while waiting for all the rest to get ready to dota, i shall write this entry like u did last year to my friends.

ok, this is in random order.

daryl C. - hahahah.... i forgot the 'C' part of ur name. but u are a friend that would never fail to say hi to me in school, a friend in which i would always greet. also, with all ur consistent tags on my blog, u nvr fail to make me feel special hahahaha... like i'm not forgotten. thanks. all those time spent talking about maple and stuff. hahaha... FUN!

MISS FOONG - hmmm... decided to put u in also cos i guess, u're sometimes the most understanding person around, but sometimes, i juz cant understand u hahahaha... nothing bad abt tt la. haha.. prolly i'm juz of lower frequency. i really hope tt through this time, though ur parents are in macau, u would still survive through, do well for A's and of course remain as ur cheerful self. juz know that your friends are always here for u ya.. =) can always count on me too!

esther tan - hahahaha.... my word. what i want to tell u would be soooo better off in a letter. my, how much you've grown.. (as if i am tt old hahaha) but i see soooo much change in you! like i said, what i want to tell you would prolly be in a letter. i really have to say that i appreciate ur care and concern alot! juz like having an older sis. it's nice. so juz wanna say thank you. the rest, in a letter or if i ever have a chance to speak to you.

desmond!!!! - DUDE! I MISS U SOOOO MUCH! though i dun really show it. i know army's tough, but God will see u through! u're kept in prayer ya. i've not forgotten u! =D man... those times u were really my ear, my output and storage. haha... things i feel like talking, or sometimes bragging. i can juz find u. hahaha.. sometimes it's juz my childish nature tt pple would erm... cant fit a word. but ya, telling u all my childish stuff.. erm... how to say ar, u juz react in a different way than others. others would either think i'm a dreamer, or being cocky or it's juz my ego they would say. but u understand how i juz want to let it out cos i'm happy. haha.. ya... take care man..

esther chong - ah... i guess things between us are getting better ya... i still care about u lots. like what both of us feel now. we have have our bestest friend. anything we want to talk or what, we can juz say it out and stuff. and i really mean ANYTHING! ya... our past.... hmmm... yea, those were nice times, but i guess we've juz got to move on, learn from mistakes and all... yea... thanks for those days... though i miss the quiksilver part. hahaha.. (whispers "the most innocent part of you") u were so blur hahaha... too innocent la. =) tc!

akira and anders - put u 2 together cos i'd prolly say the same thing. both of u a treasured friends of mine. no matter what happen or what ever bad things, yea i've often been able to easily put them aside. guess we 3 yellow pple make up one hell of a tag team ya! let's work together and beat NYJC!!! i was soo sad, i think i shouted in my dreams last night... cos i dreamt tt we lost to them.. then i let out a loud warcry.... cos i was sooo mad... I WANT TO BEAT NY!!!! I'LL KILL THE FIRST FORWARD WHO CATCHES THE BALL IN KICK OFF!!! RAAAAR!!!!

hmmm... some others, i juz assume u dun visit my blog or might have accidentally forgotten... yea...

oh yes... =)

xiao wei - it's been quite sometime... u're definitely always on my mind ya... nvr forgotten. the friendship we shared when i felt sooo outcasted... ha... thanks ya... =) u're sooo treasured for everything. times we hanged out and all... i am juz lost for words now... guess things changed real fast ya... but yea.. u're still a friend i'd never want to forget. =) thanks for all.

ok, it's about time for dotaing! seeya pple!

Friday, April 21, 2006

21/04/06

ONCE AGAIN, WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR ENTHUSIASM, AKIRA!

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

dunnoe why, but somehow, i am super high today!!!! hahahaha...

it's like sooo high, i'd do almost anything! hahaha... like thulasi and kum were talking about the indians having a line across their forehead if they're condemned or something. somehow, i dipped my finger into curry sauce and calmly, CALMLY, drew a line on my forehead! HAHAHAHA!!!!

i was juz toooooo high!!! i couldn't stop yakking, and as we were leaving KAP, i began going crazy, cos i suddenly had the major urge to tackle and kill!!! hahahahaha...

NY MEET MI!

tell u the truth, i'm stinking nervous about this game. i want to win it soooo badly cos i want to play for top 4! man, i am gonna put my spirit into what i do and place my trust on my team mates.

i'll be stinking heart broken if we lost. cos i know, my WHOLE HEART is gonna go into this game!

RAAAAAR!!! MI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TITANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dalfi shared this cheer today hahaha..

rugby, rugby is fun!
we don't know what's 1 + 1!
all we do is srcum and scrum,
rugby, rugby is sooooo fun!!!!
goooooo rugby!
HAHAHAHA!! AINT IT CUTE!!
hahahaha... i am juz having sooo much fun la... man, am in love with rugby now. hahahahaha... i love the move called new akira!!! hahahaha.. simply love it!
okok, off to dota!!! lalalalala!!!!

Thursday, April 20, 2006

20/04/06

haha... some things are some times better not known...

ok, so SKIPPED A WHOLE LECTURE TODAY! WUAHAHAHAHA!!!

ah wei called me out for blood donation! heh!

i made no appointment though. ha... miss chan was like "you, another one, never make appointment." hahahaha.... who cares!!! hahaha...

soooooooo.. my phobia of piercing.. ANYTHING TT PIERCES! argh!!! hahahaha....

i was acting like some hero la! hahaha... first the nurse asked if i wanted some anesthetic, i said, "erm... pain a not ar?" den she told me, "sometimes u wont feel a thing, sometimes it hurts quite bad."

so being a hero i said "ok, i shall try without anesthetic."

sooooooo, when i was gonna begin the withdrawal of my blood, another nurse came by and said, "so, u dun wan to use the anesthetic?" i was like "ya...." the nurse prepares and all.

DEN! a male nurse came by and said, "u're not gonna use anesthetic?"

I PANICKED! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

"erm......... i think i use la. haha...."
"so do the rest of them use anesthetic as well?" i asked the nurse.

"yea.."

I WAS LIKE PHEW!!!!!!

hahahaha!!! den i told her "i think i dun wan to be a hero, if not i'll die a hero." HAHAHAHAHA!!!!"

so dumb la! hahahaha...

how mean could i get, in fact when i was lying on the chair before they began drawing my blood, this other indian girl was beside me. (someone i dun even know)

as the nurse was preparing to insert the needle, i gave that *OUCH! it's gonna hurt look* hahaha.... den she was like "STOP IT LA!" HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

soooo funny.... the guys behind were laughing. haha...

oh yes! I GOT THIS SQUISHY BALL!!! sooo cool!!! i love that ball. and i had lots of biscuits, i mean LOTS! as i was walking out, i saw this nurse talking to the principal, so having tah paoing some tidbits, i had the cheek to ask if i could bring back more. HAHAHAHA!!

i was like "eh.... buffet right? hahaha... i tah pao more ar!?"

hahaha.. my principal thought i was totally having fun. hahaha...

yea.... but i was stinking sleepy la... the rest of the day... *yawn yawn...*

ok, off to finish hw so tt i can dota tonight!

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

19/04/06

sleeping beauty here fell asleep and NEVER woke up!

haha... i dunnoe what happened to me. i reached home yesterday, had dinner, and i juz layed on my bed and FELL ASLEEP AT 7!!! ARGH!!!!

I THREW AWAY MY WHOLE EVENING!

what's worse was that i did not bathe. hahahaha... i woke up at 3.30 am to bathe.

after my bathe, i tucked myself under my blanket as it was soooo cold, spent some time with God, and *WHAM! BAM!* i went back to sleep! hahaha...

BEST OF ALL, I COULDN'T GET MYSELF TO WAKE UP THIS MORNING!!! ARGH!!!

for tt, i deserve another detention.

nvm, shall take this day to sort my notes for chem and maths so tt i can file em tmr.. den i'll have lots of fun doing MATHS!!! HAHAHAHA!!!

alright! it's 9.31. still a long day ahead!

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

18/04/06

ah... i had spa today!

haha... i now the word SPA just sounds sooo nice and relaxing... back rubs and massages. how nice.... I WISH!

when u're in JC spa is one of the worst things u'll face. it stands for Science Practical Assessment. (or something like tt) hahahaha!!!

man!!! i screwed up for SPA la!!! made quite a few minor mistakes, all thanks to my sotongness. haha...

ok, to perk up my day, i had extended lessons all the way till 5.30 when i actually end at 3.45. hahaha... perk me up? yea it did alright.

we had extra maths lessons which was further extended by 15 mins!!! but i'm not complaining. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

FOR THE FIRST TIME, I WISHED IT EXTENDED FURTHER!!!

i had soooo much stinking fun doing maclaurin's series all because it is actually ... THAT SIMPLE! hahaha...

man! how much have i missed out!? haha.. i'm mean if i were to blame mr saw for all the boring lessons, the lack of motivation... ar... haha...

let me be the first 0 pointer millenian to be the top math student. and be on the newspaper!! wuahahahaha!! I WISH! hahaha... ya man... i wish... (heh! shall be my birthday wish. hope i do not throw tt wish away by not fulfilling it! ha!)

ok, stinking tired. gonna have dinner and begin sorting out my notes for my chem file. i know i'm definitely down for detention this fri... ha... sick man...

seeya peeps!

Monday, April 17, 2006

17/04/06

ok, everything's back to normal... =D

man... tmr's spa... haha... i need to study for it man... gonna be lots of writing to be done...

alright... i juz cant wait for NY's game. was super fired up yesterday la! haha... here and there, i juz cant stop thinking of it.

last year for me, gonna give my best! =D

ok, aint much i want to say... i'm juz happy with life now... juz need to study study study...

oh! btw, of all my report book reports, this term's the best of all 3 yrs!! hahaha... and i only got a D O E. hahaha.. i am definitely gonna make it a B D C gonna push my grades higher!

=D last lap, push hard. u too my friend.

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haha... i guess of all my friends, the best 2 would prolly be desmond and kannan, remember i ever once told the both of u tt there's someone in church/school that's like u, both of u are alike.

anyway, juz wanna say thanks for always availling urself for me. yea... especially u des. u're in the army and all, u'd prolly need a friend more than i do. =) i'd be glad to be tt friend!

thanks kannan loads for the book! hahaha.. thanks a lot man! i appreciate it. can go exploring someday with tt book too!! wad's best is the map in it! haha.. gonna put it up with my other maps. =)

kk tt's all.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

16/04/06

ha... so am home now... suppose to work on chem but i'm feeling so lazy. haha...

neways, nickelodeon has quite a lot of wierd, british shows which are sometimes funny and juz sooo real. haha..

was watching this show about some school guides to different things like bullies, crushes, dances. hahaha... sooo funny, and it's like sooo real. haha...

den this other show about girls in love. hahaha... Q.T. boy hahaha... Q.T.(cutie) hahah...but that guy in the show was really cute! hahahaha... they were all going gaga over him. so funny.

okok, think i'll get started soon. off to watch danny phantom! heh!!

Saturday, April 15, 2006

15/04/06

alright, this is supposedly yesterday's entry. (friday)

sooooo yea, spent my day packing up a small area of my room. now the cabinets look a lil cleaner haha...

found a lot of old and sweet stuff... haha.. how naive i used to be, and how cute and i stalker i might be! hahahahaha!!! me ----> stalker? NAH!

ok, den watched the japanese dvd i borrowed from teacher. sooooooo moving... sooo sad... i bet every single time i watch it, i'd tear.... the name of the show is "the grave of the fireflies" i think haha... go check it out... about the life of the japanese during world war 2...

though they deserve the sufferingas they were the ones who started everything, but i feel tt it's really too sad..

maybe the japanese came up with tt show so tt pple will pity them hehehe... like, even though they made the world suffer, they themsleves had a whole deal of pain...

hmmm... yea... nice slow day.... napped quite a bit today. and my mom offed the router again, while i was DOTAing with the rest!!! argh!!!

nvm... ok, time for me to go to bed.. maybe tmr i'd go fishing hee!! =D jurong lake!

Thursday, April 13, 2006

13/04/06

RAAAAAR!!!!!!

man! i'm super on fire! RAAAAAAR!!!! first, i got off the pitch smiling, feeling we did well, den on my way home, I WAS SOOOOOO FRUSTRATED!!!!!

hearing all the close tries against AC, seeing some of them with my own eyes, and experiencing it myself, I BET WE COULD'VE SCORED AT LEAST 20 POINTS!!!!

RAAAAAAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NUMBER 22 (sadly not 14, but a friend once told me 22 was a lucky no.) was sooooooo close to making history la!!!! raaaaaar!!!!!!!!!! saha, ran all the way to my side, catching AC, totally off guard! i looked, i told myself, TRY TIME! den best, i guess, i cant blame saha for not passing it out, cos i was 1/2 a metre slow, BUT! MY CALF HAD JUST HAVE TO GET CRAMPED! RAAAAAAAAAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! somemore since i was made first team by my coach, i should have done something good to deserve it la!

i know i let a lot of u down cos i couldn't come for trainings all, but trust me, i will work doubly hard to keep myself in the first line up since the coach placed me in. yea... promise.

I'M NOT JUZ GOING TO KILL ALL OF U NEXT MATCH, I WANNA KILL MYSELF!!!!

i am not gonna take a break during halves, gonna jog and make sure i'm warm. i wan to do my best for the team, BRING US TO TOP 4!

i believe, with the heart, WE CAN EVEN BEAT RJ!!!! unless SA wins them in group A, hehehehe.

RAAAAAAAR!!!! this is the only place i can shout it out!!!

SAVE ME FROM MY FRUSTRATIONS!!!! I AM GONNA CROM ALL MY OPPONENTS!!!! AH!!!!!! KILL ME!!!!!

ah.... i still dun feel any better though. but i wanna do sprints so tt i can hit 10 times harder!

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

12/04/06

ah... today was a nice but yet a sad day. =)

it's the last day of me being an assistant welfare director. which also means!!! i am gonna run away from my heavy debts since i am soooooo broke now! wuahahahahahahaha!!!

i was shocked to see the president cry though... yea.. but anyways, it felt good having ppl watch as i marched out and the song changes when the exco and presidents come in hahahahaha... sat down, and tt sad song played... aww... so saddening...

i want the MI Investiture soundtrack! hahahaha... like some movie OST. hahaha..

alright, i dunnoe what to say. soon and i'll be super free!! i've got a'divs tmr!!! 4 p.m. ACJC. hahaha...

man! am i ever excited though i doubt i'd be playing la!!! hahahahahahahaha =P

i'm not too bothered. i want my team to win. and i'll do my best to make them win too. =D

however, today was wierd. i could understand totally how the team felt about being lerthagic. my legs, they are juz aching though i barely ran!!! wierd! now it's so sore, i feel soooo good resting in bed. haha...

okok. tmr big day for me, u too girl. win tmr!

alright den time for me to take my rest. oon's out so no dota for now... -.-

Monday, April 10, 2006

10/04/06

it's 6am in the morning!

haha... rushing some work... not much help though, but better than nothing!

man... am feeling stinking lonely... haha... so bored at home, working ALONE, study ALONE, hahahaha...

maybe tt's juz not the case la... i guess i proly miss someone but have no idea who!? hahahahaha!!!!

alright, alright... i guess i feel so lost again.

Jesus, come be with me... =)

Saturday, April 08, 2006

08/04/06

juz a short overview of today's sermon.

about friends.
in the story of the good samaritan, there was the priest, the levite and the samaritan

those friends like the priest...
  1. those that leaves you as they have found other pple better.
  2. they do not want to get involved in ur 'dirt'.
  3. they leave u because they want to join the 'cool' gang.

the levite

  1. good friends but when it comes to the point where it costs him/her something, they leave u.

the samaritan!

  1. they make friends with those whom they feel needs a friend.

i really think today's sermon was good.. yea.. am gonna go for the subsequent ones...

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juz like the poorest of poor, a man living in poverty all his life. and one day at the age of 40, someone came up to him and gave him a fortune.

the man was overjoyed till soon later tears began flowing from his eyes.

my friend, what u did today was the fortune u gave me. i was overjoyed, and through u accepting christ, God did a new work in me. as i sat there, eyes closed, i was praying for the love of God to fill u, and instead, it began feeling me. that tingly feeling from head to toe.

when i opened my eyes, u went up to recieve christ, saw u in tears too. i knew the Lord have had filled u with his love too.

i was overjoyed... yea... though there's no treasure here, no fortune, the wealth that i have gained in up there in heaven; the gift u gave me.

PRAISE THE LORD!

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i am gonna see all my friends saved!

Thursday, April 06, 2006

06/04/06

got back all my results. am quite satisfied with them!! haha...

not too well done but good enough. i've improve a whole deal! chem, 40%, physics, 45%, maths, 50%. HAHAHA!! my weakest is now the best!?!? hahaha...

PRAISE THE LORD FOR MY GOOD MARKS!

i am motivated to study. think after this module, i am not taking another till after A's... a lot for me to catch up. i have to like finish my assignment for maths and study today la... zzzz... barely did any. took me sooooooo long to solve my maths la! by 10 i was watching lost hahahaha!!!

alright. am gonna rest.

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am kinda all mixed up in my my heart.
dun really know what's going on.
but in time, i'd noe.
thought i'd juz wait but guess i was wrong.
ha... am sooooo messed up.
wanna put things back where they are.
hope i get everything done and over with.
hope things turn out the way they should be.
i know there's nothing more for me to hope in.
i'm lost in my heart.


i have juz typed everything i feel in which there is no order and it's what ever tt pops in first.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

05/04/06

man! as i watched from behind i saw how they made the passes, it reminded me of how fast AC out their ball!

SEE!!! if we played as a team, not solo, we'd score tries!!! AND I'M SUPER PROUD OF MY TEAM TODAY! it has prolly boosted all our confidence. sometimes, i dun really like demoralising talks, cos it's really demoralising. (it's to wake us up though, but still...)

i dare to say cos i know i'm not te only one tt dislike this. yea... like a few times during cool down, and stuff, everyone's tired, cooling down, reflecting, and things had to be made worse. haha.. i dunnoe how to explain la. i kinda prefer it, "putting a point across but still encouraging." yea.. haha.. we know what we do wrong and stuff ya. i dunnoe how to explain. scared later pple get wrong idea, so i shall stop.

anyway, juz because of 1 miss pass i did, i felt the game i played was shitty. man... i couldn't help it. i juz wanted to run the ball cos it's open. yea.. it's juz me la.. seldom getting the ball so get ball muz chiong. den when i felt a grip, i turned to pass. actually i did look at my player before passing, was that fling that the opponent did that swung me and the ball...

actually, i shouldn't have let the shouts for passing get to me. (hahaha.. cos i'm the one complaining bout selfish play!!! =P) i would have go low and drive though... at least we wont send our ball flying back... haiz... sometimes i really have to access..

ok enough of rugby. i need some rest and get to my work! so much work!!! so little time!!!

and it's quite a shock tt me passing maths has like passed on like wild fire la!! hahahaha... ibrahim suddenly came up to me today and congratulate me! hahaha.. it's lie i'm S3, he's S1! lol!!! word flies FAST!

i'm happy myself la.. i got 50% (after re-calculating some marks.) wanna work hard man... somehow... diploma... the major killer.. thought it was easy, TILL THE TEACHER MADE IT DIFFICULT!!!!! WE'RE TAKING OUR A'LEVELS TOO, PLS!!!!!

looking forward to playing in semi finals...

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

04/04/06

ha.. juz came back from prayer meeting. was quite in line with thing's i've been going through these days. like a follow up =) thank God i went.

it's about strength. when we're weak, tt God would give us strength. weak emotinally, physically, even mentally... yea...

especially the fresh annointing. i needed it a lot to continue and go through with my everyday.

school work have progressively been improving. wanna work harder, but i need the strength to resist temptations and turn away from my distractions!!! hahahaha!!!

alright. am having problems man.. diploma exam's near, final project STILL not up man... i juz cant get my group mates. so i guess i have to brainstorm a little and chiong already! still need to study la!! haiz... if only i had one more week. HEH!

okok.. need to get working on physics. ha.. am happy cos of a friend. (it's not who some of u guys are thinking especially es! hahaha... friend...) ha... been a while... ok.

Monday, April 03, 2006

03/04/06

HAHAHAHA!! ANOTHER ENTRY!!!

I'M HIGH!!!! hahaha...

i was listening to "the lion sleeps tonight" and i miss PreU 3 retreat sooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!

i want to go back to bintan and relive those fun times... especially, those long bus rides, shopping, and of course, MI IDOL!!! WOOT!!!!

and thanks to shawna for the timor photo, whenever i missed timor, i could pick up the picture and juz stare at it till my whole mind enters east timor... hahahaha...

anyways, forgive me for my cockiness in my previous entry! hahaha.. i have to admit, THAT WAS cocky! hahaha... but i'm seldom like tt.. really, i was juz too high.. ha.. i simmered down a little already cos i'm falling sleepy.

but i still love my team. yea.... been through so much already and i've barely complained. dun wan to stir up conflicts ya.. haha...

kk, am off to sleep i guess.. wanted to study chem but AIYA! JIA LAT! i'll go get it out and read first..

03/04/06

I~ I FEEL SO ALIVE!!!

hahaha... man! training was GOOD!

i felt so good juz punishing the back line and see them fumble. not tt i hate them la, it's juz their own politics in which i did not want to get involve but since it came out and hit me, i might as well defend myself! (nothing to do with the forwards ya. ha..) hahahaha... at least now, they get to have the back line they've always wanted.

but guys IF u ever read this (in which i doubt so, i dun hate u, it's juz mutual rivalry on the field. trust me, i did not start it man, all i wanted was to play as a team, but after all i heard... ha... man!) i'm starting to sound like enos la! HA!

man! i feel sooo good la! it's like i juz love playing what i'm playing now cos i get to try positions in which i nvr get to play. and it's true i dun really like it when someone tells me what to do. HA! play what i play first den say! i know what i'm doing. haha.... can u believe it, a new guy questioning me why i din run? ha! i know what i'm doing ya! =)

u think i suck? ha! let me trample over u den say! hahahaha!! in-center is like what i love to do la! go low hit hard! ha... i totally trampled over! if saha did not say down, i'd get up and go somemore till they hold me down tight. hahaha...

man! yea... i've made up my mind man. giving up my first team position lessens my pressure, as i wont need to worry about missing caregroups, not being able to attend training cos i need to do my dip final project, studying for my dip. hahaha. now at least the team wont expect much from me. to put me in for A'divs, it's up to them ya.. i hope i do play but, if they think i'm not up to it, den nvm la...

i'm definitely still working hard to WACK MY TEAM DEAD so as to secure my own place. ha! enough of looking down on me. now's the only time they can look down all they want, be complacent and get whooped! wake up call. it's only me, not ur real opponent. if u cant take a tackle from me, ur opponents will KILL YOU! ha!

sorry man, if i hit u too hard. i'm juz practicing what i'll do in the real game. and it's vice versa ya? i got hit so many times. np dude! so buck up!

I REALLY THINK OUR TEAM HAS A SHOT AT TOP 4 THIS YEAR! (read carefully!)

we're gonna make it somehow. NY, MEET MI! as for the rest of them, we musn't be complacent. if i'm in, i'll still play my hardest and kill all the other teams! cj, hci, ny, acs.... HAHAHAHAHA!!!

i'm totally psyched up la! so pls forgive me if my words are too painful! hahahahaha!!!

let me be like this juz this once, i wont do this again. hahaha... i'm juz feeling soooo on fire. ignore me if u want to. =)

Sunday, April 02, 2006

02/04/06

2!4!6! hahaha.. today's date.

had combined service with region 7 and 8 haha!!!

think i guess i really have to give up my position this year, there's training everyday next week onwards, but i have 1 last diploma project to be handed up this sat and it's my exam this sat!! hahaha!! i cant wait for the exam to be over with heh!!

okok, so after service, i went to the columbarium to visit my grandpa... i kinda like tt place, cos pple there are living sooo peacefully, 'd walk round each time i'm there, see familiar faces ha.. those i saw last yr, and of course, new ones... i really wonder what are their histories which lead to their death... some, are really young. it kinda gives me the feel tt i cant believe tt they're...... dead.

anyways, had dinner as a family for once! hahaha... wierd me, i often envy pple who are able to have family bonding, but yet when it comes to me having it, i realise i din want to participate.. so it's kinda my fault tt i dun have family bonding, cos i dun wan to be there... but i had fun juz tt i kinda felt lonely...

the confused lost feelings set in, i dunnoe, dunnoe how....... to express.

i saw my cousins, all young, cheerful, and as a family, so loving and bonded. i began wishing and dreaming of the future IF i get married. haha... it'll be sooo nice, wife and kids. loving em all... haing the children climbing all around u, telling u they love you, giving you hugs. how nice, to have dinner with your wife, sit by her side, care for her, help her with the food and the kids...

den i began thinking if only i had a girlfriend.... den i snapped! because i've been telling myself i'm still young! den i snapped AGAIN! am i "only" 19 or "already" 19!? thinking of it, 2 yrs, and i'd be a man. am i gonna get married yet? hahaha.. proly not! but to know whether someone really loves a guy, many tell me time in NS is the greatest test. haha...

ah... WHO CARES! (i do) HA! actually i dun wan to, but sometimes i cant help but think about it...

ok, enough. i still have chem assignment to do. juz kicked dec and jason's butt in DOTA! BUAHAHAHAHA!!! =P

nitez pple..

Saturday, April 01, 2006

01/04/06

thanks bro for letting me go to church. thx man...

and so, the alter call was made and i was hesitating though deep within my heart, i knew i needed to rededicate myself to the Lord.

i went up in the end, stood there talking to the Lord. He knows what i am going through.

2 person prayed for me. both of them spoke directly to me. the first was not to doubt the holy spirit in me but however the second juz hit me as i knew GOD KNEW. how almighty is he...

God spoke to me directly (through the guy praying for me. am not sure who as i was too focused, so i did not open my eyes.) as if he was prophesying over me. it spoke about my studies, the pressure i am going through, the confusion. which was everything tt happened today.

i was shocked at the same time in awe. den i stood there pressing in and the spirit began burning in me. i was sooooo filled, i was crying soooo hard. i felt tt love and understanding from the Lord... it felt so good, i did not want to leave the alter. even as everyone was dismissed, i was there, pressing in, cos HE KNEW.

pple of the world sometimes can be very insensitive pple, i dun blame them. there is so much going through me inside than u think. u think a person can be compared to everyone else. YES. in this world tt's how it goes, if u suffer, her is also suffering with you.

but the Lord do not see the outside but the inside. many a times i am telling the truth, but because i know telling the truth would still make pple doubt me, so i nvr speak. in the end, i still get into a lot of trouble. i tell the truth, i become someone who is erm, trying to avoid.

one thing about me, i dun really like telling lies. (it's the truth, most of u believe me, but there's some who's like ha, u know)

anyways, i really am glad i could make it down today. thx man... it's also thanks to matthew's encouragement, or i'd have probably be at the PA at thomson during service, playing or not, i dun noe. but doubt so. i'm juz glad tt things fall in place... yea...