uh oh...

okok.. now got more problem liaoz.. but it's my own problem now k pple? sorry ar if got u involved. or those who chose to get involved, pls let me settle myself now. dun wan to make things more sour like wad he said.

wah... now i've got a lot of problems man... guess have to settle them myself liaoz. so ok. dun worry. things is my fault i'll handle it. i dunnoe wad to do man. like i say. it's hard to trust anyone for now, but i guess i have to know who to trust now. guess there's gonna be quite a lot of problem for some time... haiz... i want to settle it asap.

gonna have to juz shut up and watch now. thinking about it is ruining my life man.. i juz want things to go back to normal. i din noe things'll be like this. i love my life as it is before everything happened. it's juz cos of a few sms tt pao tohed me... now my life's a wreak... God... pls help me...

I'm going to East Timor!!

ok. i have made up my mind. this year, in december, i'll be going to East Timor! hope nothing clashes.. really interested to go! i enjoyed last year's trip to jogjar.. haha.... was like viewing the video clip and like it really touch my heart man.. soooo.... i'll be going to east timor!!

ok. today went to look for new year clothes. found 2 or three but only bought one. i got a quiksilver shirt.. man... quite nice ar.. but i really wanted the ripcurl one though... but it's.. OUT OF STOCK!! sianz....

i finally got to eat nachos too!!! was with angel la... went to orchard to get my clothes and all den met up with like almost all our region youth hahaha.... din expect them to be there.. cos i tot like no one going.. haha....

so... juz got news tt we'll be playing AC this wed!! i'm soo exceited... and i still dun have my jersey. went to check today but i guess rozlan din order so.. nvm! i shall continue with my own work. bye!

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haha... ok, i've decided to adapt a new way of blogging which means tt i'll try not to write too much about my daily life haha.. kinda bored of doing tt everyday. lol! so i'll juz try to keep things short and sweet. haha..

anyway, i cant wait for the presidential results to be out. haha... though u guys noe tt i'm not aiming to win as well. haha.. can tell from my speech. i'm like always going
"hope u guys vote for the best candidate amongst us." and not like "vote for gabriel!!" haha...

yea.. wanted to say something tt morning but i forgot! kept reminding myself yet i forgot haha! i wanted to say "even if i dun become president, i'll still do my best to make the MI spirit rock!" though there'll be no toilet roll refills if i'm not president haha!!

today i'm like gaming the whole day. now soo sleepy. even juz now, i was late for edge ha! was sleeping.. hee... gonna look for cheese dips tml! goodnight! it's real late gonna turn in.... zzzzz....

photos!!

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The team at the airport before leaving for jogjarkarta!!

what a nice scenery...

Coffee's a must! I look so sleepy ha!
FOOD!!!!!!
Girl's orphanage, they're holding the prezzies we gave em!i miss em....

a team shot!

Me and... my fans?
Family photo hohoho..
Coffee!! once again..

the real family photo! I look so nerdy..

finally a day off!

yea!! today finally got a day off! off studies and training.. it's like a new refreshing start! let me share this story i heard during my working days..

there was once this woodcutter.

he was a very hard working woodcutter.

at the start of his job, he cut many trees.

more than the rest of his colleagues.

day after day he worked very hard but somehow,

the number of trees he cut each day grew lesser.

even his colleagues who took a lot of breaks chopped down more trees than him.

he was wondering why.

so one day he asked them.

"why is it that i worked hard through out the day and yet cut lesser than u guys?"

his colleague replied,

"dont u see us having these breaks in between?

in one hand we have our tea and food,

but in the other, we're holding a sharpener, sharpening our axes."

the man looked at his axe and it was very blunt through all the chopping.

he realised he needed a break to sharpen his axe.

and after doing that, he once again was able to chop the same number of trees juz as before.

so the moral of the story here is that we should take breaks whenever we need them. for me, this break has helped me a lot! i managed to catch up on a lot of rest. dun need to worry about the pressure of training. so i can relax my body. my body is really very tired.. have been wanting this break for a long time by taking MC for fun. but now i thank God i have this break. now i'm so refreshed, i'm excited to go back to school!

sick and tired of...

SCHOOL!

this explains it all for these few days.... dun mind my previous entries.. they are entries of depression. haha... kk.. nothing much to say. seeya!

MI vs TP!

haha.. i really had a great time man. i din regret it!! once again, i got to see hannan and jasper.cool man.. so we kinda lost the game... 1-0 but actually we played real well cos tt try by TP, it was nit actually a try.. ref gave it to them... soo it was actually a draw!! haha... but TP deserved it. they played hard and well. *woot*

wah.. i got quite a lot of injuries in this match cos TP played real rough... man.. the first was my nose. haha... i tackled this guy and during the process of bringing him down, he elbowed my nose.... ended up with a lil swell at the top and it's affecting my breathing.. ar.. so uncomfortable.. wah.. he juz kept elbowing.. hit me twice. but i die die dun let go hahahahaha!! tt winger was taking it too seriously.. haha.. he was like glaring at me den i was playing with him haha... i run side ways to distract him. haha.. and he juz keep staring at me ahahahaha!!!

anyway, my next injury was when i did this high tackle. so dumb.... i noe. but i din have time to go down too.. he was like right in front of me haha.. juz grabbed him. another of his team mate, grabbed me by my face and scratched it.. ar.. now i got a scratch near my eye and one at my nose. sobx.... den the guy i brought down, he hit my at my cheek and left me a bruise... tml go school like i juz fought with someone hahaha...

anyway, my thigh muscles hurt and when i bathed, my wound were like sooo painful haha.. the water touch ar.. haha.. ok la.. i enjoyed myself a hell lot! cool game! though the ball seldom get to me.. haiz... i like do so much tackling, no attacking... ha.... oh ya! let me tell u why our game ended earlier.. man.. *ouch* two TP guys rushed into the ruck and ended up with a concusion..... man., he's bleeding at the head! ow ow ow!! see la... play too hard le. but i like it! well done! i'll play hard too in future. but i have to watch out. haha... dun want to end up with a cracked coconut shell.. ha...

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ok.. today i din exactly had a nice day cos i was filled with anger cos i was so sleepy and of course, the other reason.. but let me tell u guys something. when u see me shed tears, it means tt i'm either filled with extreme hatred, or i'm juz damn angry. today i kinda 'broke' tt seal.. ha.. i din want to do it though.. i din talk to anyone in the morning cos i dun want to spark off my tears.. u guys noe i got a really soft heart ya... so i was containing anger which was sooo unlike me. but when i need to do it. cos i have to face him and hopefully settle things properly. best case senario, he has decided to drop the thing and i'll juz leave them alone. i dunnoe.. i'm still trying to be nice... cos i dun want to start anything over small lil stuff... at least i still have VJ, sadiq, the rest backing me up.... i dun feel soo erm.. i dunnoe wad word to put in haha... at least i have a lil bit of support. i think it'll most likely be a peace talk on friday, hope so lor.. dun want anything bad to happen to the both of us.

actually things were more or less settled on the phone call le la... but got some pple a bit kpo ar... den like make things a bit worst.. but nvm la.... i hope can settle everything asap. den i can do my work and enjoy school peacefully le! yea!

ha.. today like no mood to study and do work.. can ask moe haha.. he like pushed me through everything.. thanks dude! den i was soooo sick of school, i even ran away from physics haha.. bad boy ya? haha.... den i had to sneak back into class. thanks for ur help sam!! haha... if not sure get caught. ha...

k.. end here le.. my entry like soo long liaoz... bye pple!

~sadness and sorrow~

it's 1.20a.m.

i can't sleep ar.. 'depressed'... ha... *POP* went the wine bottle.. snuck it out from my hiding place and drank all i wanted. ha... nice... ah.... carrie chong... i juz love to hear ur voice whenever i'm down. u sound sooo nice... friday'sm gonna be the day i guess.. dunnoe wad's gonna happen. but i cant be bothered. it's juz petty things i cant stand. cant believe i actually got involved. ha... wad was i thinking. hahahahaha.. (am i drunk or wad?) the mafia and me. ha! wad in the world... i fear only God and no one else!

there she goes again... carrie chong.. wad sweet voice.. cant believe it's coming out of my handphone. brain reaction slow now... getting sleepy i guess.. but i dun wan to fall asleep. no i should. ha.. i hope i'll feel better after blogging.

THIS IS MY BLOG! I CAN BLOG ANYTHING I WANT AND U CANT STOP ME!

crap... it's my blog... i love my blog... i always love writing things here. it makes me feel.... erm... good. hoobastank.... it's playing on the radio now... cool... back to drinking i guess.. pls fall asleep soon...

spongebob promoting gay lifestyle!? ahahahahahaha!!!! march 17th... spongebob movie haha... (all from the radio..)

yea... collected my $150.. i'm richer.. haha.. zzzzzzzzzz....

finally... it's done and over!

ah... finally... i've done my speech.. cool... i feel sooo relieved. haha.. i'm still felt tt i should have said my last sentence seriously.. even kumari said tt it would be much more funnier. haha... i could not control la.. haha.. u guys noe me la.. hahaha.... i was controlling already. i was trying to tell myself dun laugh. but when i started laughing. ha! my eyes became so small i could not see wad i wrote hahahaha...

anyway, the feed back was tt i'm friendly. ha... juz like in the speech. so no prob la.... things went quite fine.. haha.. thanks corinne! haha... they love ur qoute hahaha... ok la.. it was quite cool. come to think of it, i'd love to go up there and do another speech haha..

hmm.. oh yea.. today skipped a lil bit of physics. i go return stocks settle money.. FINALLY! wah.. i juz realise we din earn much la.. like peanuts.. maybe i lost some money?? !!! cant be la.. haha... i guess i underestimated the cost of the jewelries. man... they cost a bomb and profit margin was like sooo low! crap! i juz remembered we muz surrender 20%... wah... forgot to add it into calculation.. now no money liao la!!

sianz...... i got no mood to type about today le. i'm juz so sad i feel like typing some other stuff.

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"who can i trust? no one.... i guess i've got to watch my back on my own now... i guess it's back to the past... where i dunnoe if my friends are friends. i dunnoe who are those who actually are my friends. i dunnoe wad to do... who to go to. i tot i went to the right pple. tell them everything and get betrayed. why? i dunnoe. but i juz noe there's no one u can trust. even ur closest friend. i dun treat friendship lightly. i dunnoe about u pple. but i'll nvr trust anyone of u again. never! i stand on my own... why must history repeat itself.... i dun understand."

tml's my speech!!

aaaahhhh!!! i am soooo nervous!!!! hahaha.... "gabriel gabriel he's so cool! make him president of ur school!! haha..." kinda lame, but i like it hahahaha!! anyway, i've juz re-edited my speech once again.. argh... they said my speech was too informal!! haha... formal eh... sooo unlike me haha.. i did a lil bit of amendments but some of those informal stuff, i still added in haha.. i'm sooo nervous!!! i have not practice it yet!! argh!!!!!!!!! GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!

ah... tml ar... why was i nominated.... so scary.. haha... i dun mind being a normal member actually haha.. but now, it's either president, vice-president or exco. haha.. like win-win situation. lol!! haha.. how!?!?!?!? i'm sooo nervous... my heart's beating soo fast as i start thinking of it... argh!! haha... guys! muz support me k! i soo scared ar... haha... wish i dun need to do the speech. haha....

ok.. so today real tiring day cos there's double period P.E. haha.. but after P.E, i kinda enjoyed myself with S2 pple.. haha... cool bunch.. ar... i cant type anymore! cos as i type, i get more nervous thinking of my speech.. ah!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha.... help me!!!!!!!!!!! give me strength God!! see me through this round. amen!

haha.. shall go back to rehearsing...

tml's monday..

man... my heart's juz beating sooo fast whenever i think of my speech... how am i gonna carry it out? can i be myself and not formal? will i have the support?? man... i'm sooo scared ahaha... how?

anyway, today is quite a long sunday for me.. haiz... after morning service, i had my BORING NLT1... den i had to do evening service duty alone with richardson. so had to run up and down at first to do both directing and cam.. thank God i stayed man.. if not i dunnoe who will do cam liaoz. haha.. i wanted to go home... but since matt was 'sick' jonathan had no tuition and dec was probably lazing at home. anyway, i plan to take 1 month off from ministry after this month cos those guys aren't doing their work at all.. they have to be pushed a lot. so troublesome. might as well dun come church.

ok.. so i was damn hungry man.. so after my parents picked me up, i was like making a lot of noise haha... my sis too.. we were like sooo hungry. somemore i cant go over buy food during service cos only 1 camera man and director. so we juz swapped here and there.. reached home, i gouged myself with 2 packets of magi mee.. and angel's supposed to get me nachos!! haha..

ok... today i din see ec around. was kinda worried... though we're not together, i'd still keep a look out for her.. she's more than a sister to me.. i still do care about her.... knowing her kind of person also got me real worried.. thank goodness it's juz because she's sick.. called and check. hope u get well soon..

ok. so nothing much to talk about today la... shall juz get on with a lil gaming and packing of bag and stuff.

i'm a Donkey

ok.. so today's edge sermon is about the donkey... i guess i do want to be tt donkey, to be set loose, to be used by God... he has helped me, changed me.... i am soo thankful. he has made me wad i am. he's always with me. guiding me through the darkest nights... i need a change in my life.. i'm constantly falling back and forth... life's tough... but with God by my side, i fear nothing! i noe for sure He is there to help me when ever i need Him...

songs.... a wonderful thing created.... i guess, i juz want to isolate myself once again and do lots of thinking.. the only way, is music... keeps my mind off the world, allows me to do thinking in my own world... life's changed a lot for me since she left me.... i do think back a lot... i miss most of those times... and now, i've got no one to share my life with... i feel lonely... but.... this change is inevitable.... it has to come.. with this change, i cpuld concentrate more on God and my own life... but... i really miss having someone with me... it still hurts a lil... but i guess time will heal... soon.... i'm not so hurt about it anymore... been quite a while already...

got the pictures from jogjakarta already.. one day i'll post em. haha.. thanks angel... i guess, i might want to go back there for missions... i dunnoe... is juz how i feel and not a calling.. ha.. my time will come soon... wonder where i'll be... wonder what the future holds for me.. so exciting. haha....

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election's coming soon.. so is my speech.. i feel sooo nervous juz thinking about it.. my heart juz beats real fast. i noe i may not win, but i'll still put up a fight. and i dun wan to lose face during this 'fight' ha.... i'll do my best though and hope i have the support needed....

Naruto..

ok.. i juz finished watching naruto... man.. nice show... really reminds me of what i am in the past. condemned, alone, hated.... now, look at me... i've got lots of friends i can count on, i've become something, someone, i am noticed, i am acknowledge, i win trophies, i'm even running for president of my school.... i've changed soo much... thanks to the God who's up there, who has guided me through. thanks to those who condemned me too.. they are the ones that groomed me to who i am now. they are the ones who put the passion in my heart to become someone. they are the ones who pushed me hard... changed my character, caused me to understand how it feels like to be condemn and so i dun condemn others. i treasure my friends a lot. i'd try not to hurt them. i'll only let them say me and i'm fine with it. someone's gotta be the joke in order to make pple laugh. i understand tt alot cos i do disturb others too. but most of them noe i dun mean it. and i'm happy for their understanding. i have come to learn what betrayal is in life, how it hurts. i understand what trust is in life and how it can see me through situations. i am thankful that i'm living an average life and life's fun.... watching naruto is like watching myself grow.. how i became more understanding and less violent. how my hardened heart became one really soft.... so soft to the extent i cant bear hurting others cos i noe the pain. i've changed.. but sometimes, i juz wished i could rekindle that fury to get back at pple. i juz remember those times when i juz din care about consequences and juz went berserk. sometimes, i feel i need tt in life to gain the respect and not be stepped on... but respect aint everthing... man.. i dunnoe wad i'm talking about.. guess i'm juz a lil angry and mad... but it'll simmer... so i'll go to bed and forget everything by the next morning.. nitez.

PU 2 fun day..

ok today was PU 2 fun day. haha... i am so happy that i've finished my script for my speech last night... man.. i stayed up like till 12 am to do it. somemore, today i needed to wake up early to go to school... but man.. i'm happy i had mich to help me with it. if not, i'd be soo bored writing it.. haha..

ok. so reached school real early den was like wearing the red orientation T and some berms. haha... felt a lil wierd man.. with like everyone looking at u haha... i went to submit my speech and found out that i could actually hand up my speech on the day itself.. wad de!!!!! i slogged so hard to complete it! so i handed it up anyways, i got an extra to practice anyways... haha... some how i feel that what i'm writing now is so out of point here and there lol...

i remember we were boarding the buses then i was telling sadiq why we nvr get chio bu instructor, some more i was whispering to him. den that VJ damn cute sia. he like from one arm's length say "ya lor, ya lor! why we nvr get her ar??" haha... anyway, we started spraying our hair. it's like our class identity la.. so mine was like really pink. haha....


ok... on the board the bus, we were like doing our own team building, doing cheers and all for our class. singing songs and everything. man... we were prepared to win as a class! yea! first time in MI i enjoyed playing as a team. ha! so we were like a team man... so cool!

we soon reached sentosa and we were like soo excited especially shanaz haha... she was like so enthu when we reached. haha... let's skip a bit... *fast forward* ok... we were prepared to play as a class but guess wad?? we were split up into groups consisting of other classes!! ar... tt kinda sucked for a while haha... but anyway, i was soo happy to be in my group man... made more other friends and had lots of fun ar! we actually came in first for tele match!! but because we weiliang used his mouth to fill the spoon and pour into the cup, so... we lost. but the instructor said can.. sad man... it was some other team tt used their shirt to squeeze water... but anyway, i loved working with the S1 guys. man.. they are cool pple... weiming, shawn... haha.. cool guys.. i think we also did well for the sand castle building.

man... we were like bonding already but we had to play the amazing race with our own classes haha.. so we were like half happy, yet half reluctant to.. haha.. i had fun with all of them man.. haiz.. so we got back to our classes and began the amazing race. man.. it's like P.E.. running up and down haha... but it was damn fun. we were working as a class man.. like OG haha... we did many things like climbing fence, sitting on fig tree and sing our school song haha....

haha.. standing on the tree made me feel like a ninja haha.. so cool haha... anyway, after the race, we had a nice rest.. where my day was oo damn spoilt man. but heck la. cos i'm not angry anymore. for u guys who think it's because i'm stressed out due to presidency, haha. no. i am not even stressed about it. ha... i have confidence i'll do fine.. haha.. no worries. i'll juz be an exco the most ha... which i think is also not bad la... but i'm gonna see wad fate has installed for me. though i plan to sit back and watch results, i am not sitting back without a fight haha...

so the day still ended off fine when this really sweet young lady passed by and waved good bye.. aww.... it made my day haha.... i juz felt happy i still have friends... pple who noe me will noe i treasure friends as the number one priority. and i had hate pple who betrays ur friendship. this pple dun deserve our trust. but through wad has happened today, i noe that i can never trust her from now on. so it's a lesson learnt and i'm happy about it. break my heart a while, but made me weary of pple whom i cannot trust.

so overall upon 10, i'll rate today a 7. so tml's gonna be another fun day. but i'm real sleepy now haha.... zzzzzzzz...

Freezing Hybernation

man... i'm soooo cold, sooo cold... it's like 6 am now on a wednesday morning. yesterday din type cos i'll tell u later haha.... but anyway, today's gonna be one hell of a day. cos i've got training!!! zzzzz... i noe i'm usually excited about it.. but at my current condition.. NO! i'm feeling tooo weak and tired now... i need lots of rest...

ok so let me tell u about yesterday. haha... nothing much happened i guess.. the other 7 candidates and i were introduced to the school and i think i made a real funny entrance?? i dunnoe.... but anyway, the whole day juz went on as usual except for the presidency and voting thingy pple are talking about... i juz feel pai seh when pple talk about votings and stuff and words juz cant come out my mouth for example, when hazwan came to me and said in front of basitd! " i vote for u la dun vote for basitd." i was like erm.. ok.. but what i really wanted to say was "u should support ur classmate wad..." but things like happened so fast till i cannot generate words in my mind haha... den tt stupid joshua thing!! he also made fun of me cos i say him also la.. den he shoot me "u better sit down before u lose 24 votes!" haha.. i wanted to shoot back. but again, my brain slow cos talking about voting, a very sensitive issue hahaHAHAhaha... i wanted to tell him tti din need his vote haha.. and i still have some pple i noe who would ote for me ha! but anyway, that guy tried to use the same technique on me. hehe... this time, of course i was prepared la! haha... i told him i din need his INSIGNIFICANT vote hahaha... and den i cant remember who la.. helped me finish off... i think was kannan or sam or some girl from S2 la... that person said "ha josh. i'll still vote for gabriel so he nvr lose his votes" haha....

anyway, muz start learning to be bhb liaoz.. but i dunnoe how to do ar... slowly la.. muz say myself until so good.. i think i'll juz say my current good characteristics.( which i may not have many...) haiz....

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ok.. yesterday like i left the LT very late ar... den no one go home with me.. only got those girls left.. so i juz went with them... i was asking them if they wanted to eat nachos hahaha.... anyway, at the bus stop, saw tee wei and lays they all come out so i happy la. go with them. ha.... stupid. now got this dumb thing about me and kumari. ha. so, i was juz walking down with them and disturbing lays and kumari haha... they 2 very fun to disturb one. hee... but we broke into 2 halfway la cos the bus came. so i took the 77 bus up and eneded up with all the girls again.. hahaha....

went home with em.. din eat nachos. reached home about 5+pm. watch 1 naruto cd and was too tired to continue so i went to bed.... i woke up juz this morning to bathe hahahahahaha!~! man.. it's soooo cold... maybe i'll go to school today with my jumper.. haha... finally will wear it to school...

i think i'll stop here... it's 6.25am already so shall go get ready and stuff.... see u pple in school!

tired out from everything..

man... i am juz sooo tired.. my legs, arms body.... they're all aching... i need a long and good rest man.. haha.. anyway, i din update yesterday cos i was too lazy and i din had the time at night cos i was doing my GP file!!! i did it till like 1 am... i was sooo sleepy haha.... had to do a lot of adjustments la so kept redoing haha...

anyway, nothing much happened today la.. juz hate physical con for P.E. ha... so tired liaoz still physical con. den i am suppose to do campaigning and all soon... haven come out with poster nor have i done up my speech... planning to do tt soon. but first, i have to do chem tutorial for tml haiz... sian ar!!! den still have to wrap my file!!! wah... double sian ar...

now i think i go play games le la.. nothing to say, cant think of anything to write too... haha.. oh ya!!! today we did the 1-11 thingy so funny!!! vicknesh!! haha.. the song for his 3rd girl was... u noe what!? "shut up and sleep with me" OMGOSH!!! hahaha... he din noe anything la. it was sooo funny... haha... tell u guys about mine. the song for my no.3 girl was 'i never had a dream come true' haha.. what coinsidence lol... den the song for no.7 girl, 'friends forever' haha.. quite true la... but it's not a dream come true till it comes true lol!! den the song about my life, 'ELMO SONG'!!! hahahahaha..... so like me!!! haha... u guys should have seen millie's... wuahahahahaha!! i promise to say la haha... but i think i did a lil by accident haha...

okok... i said tt i'll stop so i'll stop. haha... hokage saw.... hahahahahahaha!!

parents' day

ok so today's parents' day but my parents din go.. actually they wanted to but my dad became lazy so they din come down. ha... my teachers were 'eager' to meet them haha.... so i went to school early today to do the painting of the MI banner. man... it looks real nice ar! had a fun and great time working with zhi wei, hui wen and lays. haha... i think i'll love SC life if we had more of such things going on haha..

anyway, there's suppose to be this picture which we took with our banner. it is suppose to make us look 'naked' cos lays saw me holding the banner above my neck and i was wearing rugby shorts so u cant see me wearing clothes haha... it's as if i used the banner as cover lol!! ok. so time flew by real fast.. after me and tee wei came back from eng kong eating our super yummy ice creams, we went to do some touch ups and put the banner up. haha... i think it is a job well done but need to secure it on monday. man... i'm soo proud of everyone tt helped out. cant do without ur help guys thanks!!!

so parents' day began and i had to get changed and go welcome those parents... i was doing the carpark, guiding cars and all haha... fun. after tt, they had a refreshment thingy where parents gather to talk to teachers haha.. man.. i was like quite hungry already haha... got myself some snacks. man.. the chicken pie was G.R.E.A.T!!!! nice! so everything ended, packed up... was real tired cos of training yesterday... so we got everything done, went back to SC den to 'celebrate" the completion of our first project den i went home with mr andrew. he gave me a lift home haha.. we took taxi.

soooo.... i am thinking about my election thingy.. i am soo nervous man.. i'm cracking my head about wad to say for my speech... i dunnoe wad to do man. i have to do posters too and they are to be put up on monday. haiz.... i dunnoe wad to do sia... juz have to think of something and be BHB... man... i suck at doing that.. makes me feel real wierd... ha..... i guess i juz wont touch on the BHB part and do something plain. haha....

so i dunnoe wad i want to be too, if i want to be president, i'll go all out if not, i'll be contented being an exco.. i dunnoe wad to do la.. will juz see how. i'll juz do the average job and leave the rest to my fellow millenians.

ok.. i'm having a party at my house now.. din go for edge cos i came home late like say 6.30... everything dragged a lil... anyway, off to take my dinner see u guys soon bye!

i'm soo tired!

i am sooo tired.. juz came back from rugby training.. report on injuries: ok my hand has this internal bleeding thingy, my little finger is swollen and my arms have lots of scratches. guess wad. all my injuries, are on the same arm.. haha... now my face's all red from training and all.. i am soo tired.. was forced to push my self over the limit man... like naruto... haha.. when rock lee open the gates haha...

i'm like soo busy lor... after school i had to meet up with the other SFs and do up the banner thingy den i got SL meeting.. it's on the nominated 8 who will run for presidency... ok. so i noe why johnny say i will be traumatized. it's juz cos i'm made it to one of the 8. this kinda worries me a lil.. i am scared cos i am not say a really good example like u guys noe. i have problems with my studies and all... haiz.... it's like stress u noe... i juz have to accept fate and run for it. it's like naruto once again haha... u noe, the chunin exam. haha... the top eight that made it through the preliminary rounds will have to draw lots 1-8 (which was what we did) and we'll have 2 every morning to do their speech. i guess i'm matched up with taufiq. ha.... me and him... i aint popular like him haha... man... it's really like naruto.. haha... maybe one day, i'll be hokage LOL!! anyway, i'll still make the exco even if i did not make it through the elections.. so we'll juz have to see wad happens... i'll juz hope for the best. or should i say, pray for the best...

ok... so i am having difficulty typing so i'll make quite a lot of mistakes. tt's cos my brain is a lil slow now cos of training.. i've pushed too hard.. and open one of my 'gates' in my body.... haha i'm crapping!! those who watch naruto will noe haha... kelv, kira, miyane, anders haha.... sooo.. i'm soo happy the my SFs did a damn good job on completing the banner while i was having training. thank u to all those who helped,u deserve recognition so those that helped me do it up are hui wen, lays, revathi erm.... shahani? huda and of course tee wei! thanks u guys lots!!!

ok let's see... i'm juz soo tired i'll go bathe again and start gaming or watch naruto den sleep.. tml still have to go down to school to finish up the banner... actually, i dun need everyone this time round. i forgot to tell them... *oops* nvm la... i'll apologise tml (dunnoe if i spelt it correctly.. dun look correct haha...)

ok i shall be off to gaming and perhaps write my speech... hmm... got qiu wen as back up so dun need scared. (calista) haha.. shall ask her to teach me wad to say.

Traumatized??

did i spell it correctly?? ok i dunnoe wad's going on la but when i left school today, and was stopped by johnny. he said he had something to tell me. he said "u'll be traumatized." huh??? wad is tt suppose to mean?? man... it got me thinking about it all the way home haha... so first thing that came to my mind huh?? my punishment?? (cos i was punished today. i'll say later.) den hidayu said "u'll find out tml..." huh??? so wad is that supposed to mean?? exco thingy?? man.... den finally, i came to a conlcusion on the train. it could be the camera! i saw them looking at something before i was stopped... damn it looked familiar. the camera which was taking secret shots. i think it was tt one.... i think they were viewing some video or something. if i'm wrong, den it muz be the other 2 liaoz... ha... make me want to find out even more... but i'll noe tml la i think...

anyway, today was a lousy day for me haha... i woke up thinking it was a saturday or something and went back to bed hahaha..... so of course after sometime, it hit me tt today was not a holidayh so i woke up and got changed and stuff... hmmm.. i cant remember much about today... but i was punished!! wait wait wait before that, hahaha... luke chen said i was asking good questions during physics haha... now for the bad part. i was punished!!! wad happened was tt, i did not finish my SRP work. i did most of my application but not the vocab part. damn it! he wants the damn vocab part! i think... i mean.. i have always been doing the application part then the vocab ma... and i read properly before doing so if i do a bit slow forgive me la! not all of us finished our work and he said he 'read' through everyone else ha! FUNNY! what crap! actually i was save yer noe... he put down my paper and walk to kai ling's. i din noe he was such an unreasonable person. so i open my damn mouth and said. "i have not finish writing.one last point" DAMN IT! he made me stand and sent me out of the class!!! ok la.. i din mind it at first... but during maths. i got soo pissed off.. i think it was because i was trying to tell him most pple din finish and kelv and saddiq felt that i was saboing others. but i was trying to help them. at least vijay agreed with me... but den kelv was trying to tell me we were sent out cos we din finish vocab. ya i understand. but i juz want to state my point cos if i din open my mouth, he'd ignored me and walk away! argh!!!

so i could not concentrate in maths.. went to sleep.. thank goodness, mr saw is a nice guy... man.. i love saw... no, hokage saw. hahahaha!! i din even bother to do the test today cos i noe nothing. so i put it aside, went out to drink water came back and did differentiation. after some time, i juz ended up chatting with saw, clinton saw about maple haha....

after school had to meet the rest about the banner thingy. hope no one screws up the buying of the clothe... man. i'm worried... i'm so busy.. it's like i'm suppose to meet my e-club guys to get jia li teach us something but i got this banner thingy... den so lil pple came down. thanks to those that came down i appreciate it. and since mannan stepped down, i have prob handling the publicity commitee so i was checking with miss lee if like maybe hui wen should help me. cos i think she has really good leadership qualities. too bad she din made it through interview. or maybe she din want to be part of the SCs... haha.. but if i did have an assistant, den i can juz pass most of my jobs to that person and be off with my other cca's but miss lee say that i should distribute work load... so did hui wen.. ha.. but i am a soft hearted person. haha.. i cant bear to say it out to get someone else to do the work.. tt's my weakness and i'm gonna change man.. cant let pple push me around.. starting to hate it...

anyway, i'll juz stop here and get back to enjoying life at home... see u guys tmr!

continued from juz now..

ahh.... i've juz rushed my dinner finish cos i want to spend quality time with my comp haha... now i'm drinking marigold's mix berry yoghurt drink.. ahh... heavenly... ok so back to what's on today.

today was early cos i'm gonna recieve another trophy!! haha.. this time's for rugby. remember?? tt time like a month or 2 back, we were bowl champions haha... (sounds like we came in first lol!) so recieve prize le den go back class. mr chen was like "so tmr going up again for another trophy??" haha.. like i'm some kind of tian cai!? haha... there's still one more thing i've not gotten though.. dunnoe when they're giving it out..

anyway, today's real cool. was sooo relaxing had an enjoyable time with everyone.. but i cant stop thinking of home and maple!!! haha.. i want to play maple!!! ok let's skip everything and go to home tutors' period haha... i was like outside with kira and i DUN WANT TO GO TO CLASS cos luke skywalker is inside! so i juz squat at the corridor so tt he cant see me hahahahahaha!!! in the end, kira joined me and his legs were tired squating, so we sat there haha.. like kena punished haha... i juz sat there and watch all the yr ones go by... like more girls den guys ar... haha.. soon i felt guilty staying out so long so i went back in. BAD IDEA!! me, kira, josh and kai had to go out and join him for a small talk about our hair. haha.. me and kira bad example liao lorz like tt, haha.... so he was like commenting non stop till kira cant stand it haha.... so he juz sent us up to the toilet and got our hair 'done' haha... so kira came back more spikier than before, i came back making my hair nicer than before haha... so juz like tt lor..

so we were doing something about class targets and stuff la.. everything, we say luke chen hahaha.. like he ask "what should the teacher do to help their students" den i was like dun be so petty? the others were like saying other stuff but i forgot haha.. everything is to shoot him one haha.. so funny. so nvm... we juz got things done and i left the class..

blah blah blah.... soooo many things happened common test and all.. i was like sleeping through half way of my compo for GP. i din finish my chinese paper cos i din feel like doing it anymore... so i juz stared into space and think, think, think.... haha.. soon paper ended and SLs had to stay back for picking excos... doubt i want to be one or will be one. got too many things... dunnoe if i should start quiting something or push on.. haiz... it'll make me look irresponsible if i cant finish a project due to another cca... haiz... problem!!!

anyway, we were on our way home... so kira told me something which got me thinking a lot! cos it's like not only him and not only tt person but others telling me and stuff... have i changed!? haha... i dunnoe... this whole yr is like i have become naruto. i worked hard and i achieved. and became noticed? yea.. it's true tt in the past i lack lots of attention. i am happy but i feel all wierd... i guess only corinne noes why... i dun have confidence in myself... i remember during net leader's training.. there's this thing that was said to us by our teacher during our short intercession period. i felt tt it was shot at me.... God has been opposing my tots all the time.. aint the first time already. wadever i have in mind and is a worry for me, he'd use someone to speak to me through a prophesy.. it's like the 4th time this has happened to me.. some of u guys noe la. especially the indo trip pple... i am having to much lack of confidence in myself and every single thing i told corinne that night was shot back at me telling me i dun have to worry. i dun need to blend in. i've blended in enough. haiz... dunnoe how to explain now... i juz have to have confidence in myself now...

so... i was juz thinking about everything on my way back... guess i've changed from last yr... changed for the better... i think... now i juz have to be hard working and work on my studies!!

about my cca's and stuff..

wah... have been real busy with lots of stuff man!! each day when i go to school, i can only think of home ----- the only place where i'm stress free... haiz... i cant procrastinate nowadays unlike last yr... i can push all my work to last min but this yr, i've got to rush them asap!! man.. life's tough for me now.. anyway about my cca's.

ok.. i joined entrepreneur club was because i juz did direct sales during my first 3 months and i believe that i have the qualities to be a good entrepreneur. besides, it was the start of school, din want to get too caught up with cca and guess wad. entrepreneur is the most slack cca in MI!! so i joined haha.... i was like the only one going home every cca day cos i have no meeting while the rest, they got their sports and clubs and stuff haha.... but slowly, entrepreneur club became more involved in competing and so i became a lil busy...

rugby.. it's what i wanted to join since the start of the school term but i knew no one there so i left it out. one day, i realised sadiq and hannan were in rugby so i got them to teached me and joined. rugby became the only sport i play and i loved it. it's like my game i juz got sooo addicted over touch haha... sooo soon was training with the rest of em and still, i wasnt that busy.

went for SLE near the end of school year. after that camp, my life changed... man.... i was like the busiest person on the planet! after SLE, i became part of the student facilitators, doing publicity for the school's walkathon thingy. had lots of meeting and stuff. became the secretary of the project but because of some stuff which happened to our president, i kinda took over... so i worked with miss lee which was quite cool. cos she's a nice teacher and i like her. (not like like ok, juz like cos she's a nice teacher. miss low's still the best!! hahahaha!!! =D) i needed to do quite a lot of stuff after that.. the boards and all... thanks to all my members which helped me man!! u guys made things easier for me. adlina, tee wei, lays, kumari, huiwen, mannan, all the others k! thanks!!

sooo... soon, was selected for the SL thingy. man... i became really busy with orientation.. haiz... almost had no school holiday cos i needed to come back everyday for SL stuff and E-club thingy.. haiz... went for the indo trip thingy too.. youth camp and all...holidays, GONE!!

nvm.... things now are like crashing with each other now. let me tell u my plans for this week. juz this week will kill.

ok. today had rugby training but, i had E-club meeting and common test. so i had to comprimise E-club and training for common test. den tml, i'm suppose to meet the E-club pple to settle stuff but, i've got to meet the student facilitators(SF) to do some other things! and friday, i got to do the banner for SF and i got rugby training and SL meeting for exco stuff... wah!!! killer man!! i still haven return my stocks to janet yet so no money!! nvm.. i'll have to push tt...

i love my home...

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ok.. today's entry is titleless cos i dunnoe wad to type today.. but i still have to update it haha.. so here goes... ok.. i was once again unable to wake up!! i reached school juz in time, saw chor kiat and told him about the bp girls. about their hair thingy so he passed it to me to lend them but i could not find em. anyway, thank goodness!! cos i typed this, i have reminded myself to bring for them tml.
(ahhh.. my dad like got so much wine home since christmas, i am having wine like water... hehehe...)

ok. back from packing the spray and all. sooo... let's continue.. i reached juz on time today and everyine was like lining up. haha.. i was like oh no!! late liaoz.. den i chiong and line up. suddenly, i remembered!! today prize presentation for my entrepreneur competition!! so i had to rush in front to find them. but! i could not find them *panics* so i looked around and i think hui wen told me they were on the other side!! man.. i din dare to go over... so i anyhow stand in front of some other classes haha... in the end, manage to get to them and things went on smoothly.. *phew* haha...

hmmm.. i juz remembered something. while i was on my way to school today, i was like still half asleep in my dad's car.. we juz dropped off my sis. den as we moved on to keat hong LRT, i saw this girl haha.. wearing PJ uniform. but like i said, i was half awake/asleep so it juz looked like some figure in the desert walking haha... but as my dad's car moved by, it's like some kind of movie scene. where time juz pauses and u look out and then there.... COLLEEN! hahahahaha... it's like really how i saw things. haha... really too tired ar....

ok back to where i left off juz now. sooo... went back to class for lessons and stuff.. chinese passed faster than i can imagine. she's in a good mood today. so i managed to spend most of my time sleeping. today, i'm gonna sleep early le... cos if not tml cannot reach school on time. got another prize presentation for rugby one. i need to be there by 7.30 am... zzzz... scared i late ar.. (so now i'm taking a depresant, hopefully it'll make me sleep haha...)

ok... breaks today were like never ending, i dunnoe y.. i juz felt that it juz lasted real long haha.. after tt, was presentation for project work. i was the second presentor. given 3 mins, i finished in 2 haha.. so comments for my presentation. i was SHY!? hahahahaha u muz be joking!! and i was touching my collar the whole time and i din realise it ahahahahaha!!! juz a bad habit la haha... but overall, i was kinda short on points but i think i did fine...

ok. let's skip to the end of the day. haha... had physics lecture which spoiled my whole day cos i was planning on going out with my OG!!!! anyway, i was totally switched off by then so i was either chatting away or juz sleeping haha.. and lay kuen said i reminded her of joash!? wad!!!?? cos he sleeps a lot!? haha... and she said he's a small kid ahahahahaha!!!! joash!!! hahaha.. ya la.. u do look small la haha... so i think i chatted a lil too much. i was juz having fun with clinton and kelv chatting about naruto haha... den we were like naming everyone with a character from naruto haha... LAME!! i noe! i started it wad.. hahahaha....

eventually, lecture ended and i chiong home ar!! i took sam's car back.. anyway, i'm gonna watch naruto a lil more den go to bed.. nitez pple!!

ah... nice day..

ok.. today is a real nice day man... i din wake up that late today, so we were able to leave on time.. finally i am getting used to the waking up haha... reached school, had to settle some stuff for prize presentation.. but liyun was not around yet so couldn't do it today maybe tml. ha...

soo... i was greeted by this really beautiful smile from dev haha... she really has a nice smile. pple, u should check it out ha! so she's from my sec sch. here in MI for first 3 months. i also saw candice! haha... man.. she's like second in the competition and i'm third and we're gonna do prize presentation... haha.. feels so wierd. haha...

so anyway, first period was chem pract haha... fun ar.. so long nvr do heating liaoz... enjoyed myself ar haha... den also starting to click with my 2 new classmates lay kuen and mosses!! haha... cool dudes. ha!

breaks were like everywhere haha... such a relaxing day. after pract was break den i was settling our entrepreneur stuff with mr chee. ha!!!! got it settled!!! we get to keep the profits!!! wuahahahaha!!! but i've got to settle my goods.. until now, i have not returned them.. haiz... better contact janet..

so after break was like GP. ha check this out!!! we were in the library finishing our project work.


haha i know we like look very close haha.. but she's actually pinching me!!! haha... got akira to take a pic of us cos i am sitting on the chair, and she is standing!!! hahaha!! so i'm like comparing heights?? haha.... cool huh.. hehe..

anyway, i had HT period so i slept in the hall... so boring... dn i went for another break! hahaha.... so relaxing... finally, was maths period. haha... boring!! uma and kelv were sitting with me, so i juz chatted with kelv and moses cos he was behind me.. i was juz joking around and i cant stop laughing/smiling haha.. i am juz soo happy. i dunnoe why. i was juz enjoying myself. haha.. gave Mr saw a back massage haha.. make him feel relaxed. my first math class with him ma.. dun want to stress him out. haha... so i was also talking about his specs. hahahahah!!! i was wondering y it was sooo huge!!! so i asked him. hahaha!! gu dong! it's like 15 years old.. hahaha... it's like soooo big, those kind grandfathers wear.. haha. and there i went again shooting my mouth without thinking haha.. was disturbing him a bit about the auction thingy and stuff haha... so pple, pls dun take me seriously k! cos i speak without thinking one!! haha.... it's juz to make me laugh.. haha... so i do such stuff.. but i'll try not to do it so often la.. haha.. later make pple angry and cry.. haiz... see la.. *slaps my mouth* i'm juz like tt, so bear with me k.

sooo.. had P.E. in the end. haha.. was considered quite slack for physical con... i suffered more last year!!! today was juz running and stuff haha.. was worried man.. but thanks to the rain, things were shortened. haha... so anyway, i'll go back to watching naruto..but before tt,

I'VE GROWN 2CM!!!

wadever i can remember!

haha.. ok this update is another update on wad ever i can remember cos nothing much happened today haha... and oh ya! the burning sensation i felt during training that day near my eye, it turned out to be some stupid insect which stung(if there is such a past tense haha i forgot all my basic english.. but i feel 'stung' sounds wierd hahaha) me and now there's this lil swell near my eye.. haiz...
there... the dot. can u see it??

haha... today feel like uploading pictures so i kinda took the effort to get my sis to take some pics. haha... so anyway, i was checking out my new pair of haha... i am juz soo happy i have a new pair of jeans... but now, i need shirts.. ha.... gonna go get some soon...


check it out!

haha... sooo i wore it to church today. soo happy... hee.. =D

spend the whole day in church today.. and now brian's on ministry leave so i'm taking over temporarily according to him. and poor jonathan would have to do set-up every week cos i'm always there juz on time. ha.. maybe i'll tell matthew to go down early too. den i'll do cam k! so fair. u do setup and i let u be director i do cam.. or damn! i left the disc in the 2 machines!!!!!! ar!!! i forgot to take them out after i finalised them.. oh.. maybe brian took em out cos he had to play a cd for the new youths.. argh.. i am not cut out to be a director haha...

anyway, jammed in church again.. haha... nothing to do ar.. wait for 4 hrs to pass... cos today i got NLT1 if not i'll go home.. sooo.. i was alone in NLT1... the rest either taken it or they dun wan to go for class.. haiz... so i quite lonely there la.. haha... but nvm la... juz go den see how lor...

stayed for evening. den after that, head off for dinner... man.. i'm sooo hungry!! so we ate at keat hong. den after tt, we made prank calls again haha.. but esther foong and joy not with us la.. haha... anyway, i got home and took a few more pics fer fun cos i wanted to make my blog a lil more lively haha...

ok, i cant seem to get them out due to a technical prob haha.. so u'll see them another day haha.... kk.. so i'll juz have to stop here cos it is real late liaoz.. have to sleep.. tml got sch... sianz... nitez pple... take care!!!

A short update

ok.. din update yesterday cos i spent most of my time watching naruto so i went to bed real late so din feel like typing ha... but anyway, not much happened only some lil stuffs. ok i'll begin.

sooo..... was watching naruto some times, it's sooo funny u'd laugh ur head off but sometimes is soooo touching it'll make u cry and it's sooo violent at times i cant stand watching it haha.... so scary man... especially when sasuke broke that guys arm... wah.. pain ar!!!!!!!!

ok... yesterday went to edge... actually i din want to cos i was aching all over my lower body... and i was really tired... woke up late that day and i din go for duty in the morning. hmmm... den also john's leaving for malaysia le... going there to study.. so wish him all the best! study and work hard!

hmmmm.. what else happened ar... ha.. oh ya.. my new bad habit. haha... i dunnoe why but i keep stoning these days.. keep drifting off for no reason haha... corinne kinda helped me solved my prob. she said maybe i had a lack of sleep.. yea i guess i DO have a lack of sleep... but i'm drifting off too often hahahaha... especially during SL meetings and stuff, i'll drift off and when i snap out of it, i'll be like "huh?? wad happened ar??" haha... better get rid of this habit..

before the last point for now, there's this problem i used to faced when jasper was around. man... i dislike pple like him. but now, of course i dun dislike jasper la.. been a long time, and i've more or less stop getting mad over the things he does and forgiven him. but now, there's another person juz like jasper.. man.. cant stand it.. dun treasure friendship... i am happy that i'm a very forgiving person. sooo, i juz get mad about it for a while den i'll juz let it be.. but i cant stand it. got friends, den they'll one group hit u. no friends, he'll juz come to u like a nice person.. dun u guys think it's juz like jasper??? trying to blend in. i dun blame tt person. but it hurts when pple betrays me cos i trust them.

the last thing is kind of a secret. it's something i'm planning to do but i cant let pple noe yet.... i'm still unsure, anyway, i've gtg to church so gonna get prepared.. bye!

weekends finally!!

ah... finally tml's saturday.. man.. it's so torturing to wake up soo early everyday... somemore i am like having so much exercise without enough rest.. haiz... today i had soo much fun playing rugby haha... but i got a lot of injuries ar... my feet kenna stepped on by boots during tackle practice, my arm's bruised and swelling, my hand has internal bleeding and my knee!!! stupid knee.. hold me back from running haiz.... but, i still had soo much fun depite the injuries... have to rub rub rub and rest haha...

soooschool today was quite cool.. i love the time table.. 2 periods lecture, P.E., break den lecture again. shiok ar haha...but i am having a lil bit of problems absorbing what is taught and i sooo stupidly left all my notes in school. haiz.. haha.. heck la... i'll study using TYS.

ahh... my mom's finally back.. i have been wearing my contact lens all these while with no where to store it cos my mom took the contact lens cover with her... haiz.. my poor eyes... breathe! breathe in air!!! man.. my eyes are like suffocating.. ha...

man... i am really moody now i guess it's because i'm real tired after training and all and cos of onemore thing but... heck la... i dun think too much le... life's so pain at times haiz..

anyway, i got my jeans le!!! i went to collect it juz now with kira cos we went for dinner. haha.. looks quite good leh! cant wait to wear it haha... man... it'll be sooo cool. but i dunnoe wad to wear it with yet.. haha... so silly... have to go see see my drawer later le... talking about dinner, tt kira dunnoe why so hungry order 2 meals at LJS and he finished it!! haha... but the funny part was the drinks he ordered.. lol! 2 meals means to drinks and he upsized them haha... (argh! i juz swing my chair and kena my foot! den i bent my knee!! stupid sooo pain!)

zzzzz..... i to lazy to type le... the 5 round run kinda tire me a lot... making me feel soo lazy... haha...

finally back in class!

ok.. today's the first day i am back in class studying with everyone else... and guess what!? i found out that i've got 3 periods of maths straight in a row every thursday!!!!!! wah!!!!!!!!! siao liao.... soooo sian ar... if mr saw la.. but miss woo(is this her name and how it is spelt?) she not bad la.. the class still quite lively... excepty i drift off cos it was 3 periods of i dunnoe what language u are speaking for me... so i almost din absorb anything... ha... maths leh.. i dun understand a single thing lor....

ok.. so today ar nothing much have to wake up damn early again. haha... like orientation ar haha... nice to see all of OG3 as a group again... too bad orientation din last till like friday.. man it'll be fun!! cos i realise all of them starting to open up liaoz. haha... which is like quite cool la.. hope can plan an outing den can have fun haha...

hmmm.. school's going fine now.. but i'm worried ar.. so many things to do... dunnoe if i can cope.. chem and physics.. haiz... i need to study ar... i am sooo scared.. i dunnoe wad to do.. pray? i guess that's like the only way left.. pray and study... life's got sooo much problems.. haiz...

actually, i dun really noe wad to write for today but i juz wanna say:

THANK YOU OG3 FOR MAKING ORIENTATION SOOOOOO FUN!!!!!!!!

at least, now i have 24 more new friends haha... tt's cool... bet all the other OGs had fun too... guess this is my very first OG, so i'll never forget everyone.. ha... gonna learn from this time round and make the second orientation a better one! cheers to all!!!!!!

Orientation day 3..

ha.. final day of orientation.. finally the end of my lack of sleep and body aches... haha... have to like stand whole day, go home ar, sleep liaoz, next morning leg muscle ache lol.. haha... today was like the best of all 3 days cos we finally kinda got to bond and stuff.. was nice... ha.. so about today.........

ok.. first of all, i was late once again cos i overslept. haha.. man.. reached there like half an hour later.. hee.. i noe likevery irresponsible ar... but i cannot tahan liaoz... nvr wake up so early in a long time liaoz.. not used to it haha... so like i reached and everyone was assembling.. i had to rush and dump my stuff and go straight up to the hall... i was in quite a mess man... zzz.... ( i noe u guys might see a lot of '...' that's because i'm real sleepy now, and the three dots represent the mood i'm in now haha... sleepy mood..)

ok... today was suppose to be a short day with not much programmes planned except for the tele-death match and the mascot comp haha... our mascot wears a tube!! haha!!! den on this tube, hangs many pieces of furry cloth as fur for our deer... haha.. ( if u guys dunnoe, our mascot is a deer.. haha.) so...... had to dress him up and stuff but it was quite a problem la.. so troublesome.. haha... den, had to rush all over the place... "tight schedule guys! tight schedule!!"---- phrase adapted from johnny and muthu. haha... those lil kids of my OG can be real slow! but nvm la.. at least we were not alwasy the latest.. haha.. OG1 was always the latest. but they have bonded real well. haha.. first day lynette like complaining like siao her OG got prob.. (OG1) but den in the end, she win most improved OG haha..

ok, so had the tele-death match.. i think those guys had fun man... it was dirty, wet and messy haha.... (sounds wrong) what i meant was mud! cos SOME pple might mis interpret my words. later i'll continue on this. ok, so the tele-death match went quite well but too slow. that was why we could not continue with the other 2 games sianz.... haiz.... so disappointing.. but being the first few of the 30 OGs, we had the earliest and longest break haha.. cool! i let my group off to go play ball den i went to the hall to join the other SLs and SCs haha...

in the hall, we were having a hell lot of fun man!!! haha.. so many things happened but it's bed time.. (aww....) in the end, i went down to have my lunch. so decided to try the laksa haha.. we have a new noodles stall cool.. haha.. saw michelle there ha... she ordered the same cool... the laksa not bad la. better than the last time haha.... so after finishing my lunch i had to meet up with the other SLs.. here's when the big problem started.

my dumb dumb OG sooo slow! cos after tt briefing i had with the other SLs, we had to assemble!! argh!! i was like die liaoz... they were in class trying to dress up the mascot again! wah... sianz.. all the OG down except mine and i dun have my OG card cos those dumb SCs (the ruggers) hid my OG card! bleah... so i had to go up and bring them down.. man.. i nearly flared.. ha.. but i'm not the type of guy who flares easily ha... i guess i dun do it cos i feel tt when others like as in the other leaders, or SCs or wadever group leader does it, it pisses me off. i feel that they very act like kind of attitude so i dun do such thing haha... like showing attitude ar.. i find it ugly.. damn ugly.. ha...

but anyway, i went up and rushed them down. den after everyone's settled down, this really big bumble bee came by ahahaha *buzz buzz* it kinda became like a mother nature ice-breaker thingy ahahahahahahahaha!!!! evryone was screaming and dodging and having sooo much fun lol! den it's like a wave. where ever the bee went, everyone would duck and scream hahaha!! so maybe the bee felt that it had some kind of supernatural powers tt causes this waves, tt's why it kept circling round wuahahahahaha!!! nothing to be scared about, cos if a bee stings u, they die... get it? so they wont sting u. cos they have not enjoyed life!! ha!

anyway, all of the OGs were brought up to the hall den we had some performances from the SCs. after tt, it was our turn for our intro. haha... man.. i think our intro went quite well haha.... they seem to enjoy it haha... it was quite cool lah the finale..

after tt, was the last part.... taking of our OG photos.. had fun doing it la. was crappy haha... den we went to the hall to settle our contact list and group outing.. guess we were going for a dinner too.. ha... gonna be steam boat? ha... some of u guys would be like "what!? steamboat again!?" haha... the only thing i like and it's fun haha... sat down chat with the left overs of my OG after releasing the rest haha... so only the BPGH girls (Kim and jieying) were there and delphine and and kat and 4 boys(ben, elwin, arthur and.. erm.. chor kiat? i forgot his name haha..) so we were juz chatting and spotting babes haha... i din have the chance to do it only after orientation den i had the chance to sit down and look around. haha.. i also like not very interested in looking around ha.. i believe tt what's nice would come my way by itself haha.. but nothing to my liking lol.. have to agree many really good ones there, but i'm picky lol.. some too chio? hahahahaha!! kim and jieying were like saying i very picky haha... but they help me do spotting which made things easier fer me hahaha....

ha ok! back to the part where pple misinterpreted me haha... ok i was at the SC den area den i asked zhi wei for one of the jelly thingy. haha.. so i opened it and u noe, the juice splurted out like that haha.. so everyone was like staring at me cos it went like that and landed on Xiao Xuan lol!! so i was trying to explain cos dunnoe hu say i rub too hard. DOTZ! (for u guys info, i din do anything to it k! i juz opened it. nothing else. the rest is pple add one.) so i said, "when it's hot, it'll expand." den the rest went "ya la! when it's hot, it'll expand." DOTZ! ( haha... ec would go chirp chirp chirp or erp erp erp haha ) i din mean it that way k! i was really talking scientifically i promise! is u all ar.. haiz... think too much haha..

den talk to my OG mateys about some stuff and all lor.. nothing much le.. play rugby, go church for seminar already half dead. and finally go home yay!!! going to go sleep le.. so good night pple... sweet dreamx....

Orientation day 2..

ha... yesterday, i slept like 8.45pm and guess wad? i woke up at 630 today!! ar!! confirm late for school la! suppose to reach like 6.45.. haha... so anyway, i left my house at 6.50... so late hor... haha.. but by the time i reched, they juz finished their biefing.. haha*phew*

ok.. so today was much much more fun than yesterday haha.. pple were more open today.. manage to connect more with my OG pple haha... so had treasure hunt today which was like the most fun one cos all very enthu but, cos of the damn rain, it was kinda canceled. haha.. anyway, MI dance was quite fun.. but i was really sleepy le... haha... den me and kira dance together cos no partner liaoz. den last part cos can get to hold ger than like chiong go find haha... but i went toilet.. tired too la...

oh ya!! i remember!! got 1 ger from my OG haha.. i saw her yesterday with a guy... dunnoe wad's up with the guy, but wad ever is up with them, muz come down hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!! i noe LAME!!!!! (OG9!!) haha.... those from my school will noe why OG9 lol!!! so i was disturbing her haha.. nearly blurted out everything but heng ar.. nobody noe hahahahaha!!

hmmm... wad else happened... oh ya!! angel, esther foong and erm... her classmate? ya, they crash my school haha... so nice to see em in the morning.. haha.. but den esthwer and her fren left first cos they found it.... boring! haiz.. not tt bad la... angel stayed cos her STC frens all around.. and guess wad, i juz realise my fren and CHARLENE(blue and white haha... IJ colour..) are classmates cos they wore the same class T!! haha... so to whichever guy who wants to noe her, i can help!! haha.. but u also dun wan me to help la.. hahahaha.... get the gers help better... BUT! if u need my help, haha... find me find me... lol!

den erm.. i still cant find my jersey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how???????????? sob sob... i so jealous pple got jersey i dun have... i want my jersey... it means sooo much to me.... hope next yr got nicer no. haiz... what else ar.... haha.. i remember le... got this ger who has a guy problem in my OG. haha.. but shant interfere with em hahaha.... guess it is settled le. haha.. in some really pai seh way. den she say tml like cannot face the guy. haha...

anyway, angel!!!!!!!! i want my MMC card!!! this guy, he has all the N-gage games!! and guess what!? he din payt a single cent cos they are downloaded!!! crap!!!!!!!! 1 game costs like $65!!! so ex!!! gonna get a 512mb card den fit in all the games. wuahahahahahahahaha!!!! gonna have to go buy first... hope i can get it cheap... should be cheap la.... haha....

anyway, i wanna go game before i get tired and dun have the chance to play games but before tt, i gotta pack my stuff for tml's mascot.. or else.. we wont have a mascot... kk so see u guys soon!

Orientation 2005!

wah.. today muz wake up like 5.45am cos i need to reach school at 6.45!!! so early ar... i cannot wake up la... some more, today suppose to be common test for all yr2s but i cant have mine cos i'm running an OG.. so i have to take mine on next wed... and i will be till like 6pm!! wah.. so sad..

so like reach school liaoz, got a lot of pple le!! shocking sia.. 6.45am leh! so early... haha... so i like reported and have to go to the hall to gather my OG pple.. like sooo sleepy ar.... den after tt, we had quite a few breaks, den like first OG period, sooo quiet ar!! no one talk, den like sian sian one... haiz... so i really dunnoe what to do ar.. den nvm, juz let things run first, hopefully second OG period, they'll be more open. ha...

ok.. so had MI dance and all.. so squeezy in the hall... but quite fun la.. haha.. den had second OG period.. this time, i want to settle everything, so i like dunnoe wad to do ar.. i juz got one of the guys, come out and lead. guess wad!? it worked man.. cool!! haha.. they like start to talk, start to listen and like we did our cheer!! haha.. quite a wierd name and cheer though.. haha...

sooo... finally the day ended.. was soo excited cos i tot i could go collect my jeans but, i ended school so late and was too tired la.. so i went home.. suppose to join min they all for dinner at seoul garden too.. haha.... nvm la.. she'll understand... she's leaving soon... so is john.. lesser youths liaoz.. but, pple come, pple go.. so i shall look on the bright side. more pple are coming in though they are leaving. hope our youth will grow again. wish both of em all the best in their studies and everything else. God bless!!

wind...

ah.. juz reached home... man.. i juz love the wind.. i love the sea... anything that has to do with water and lots of wind haha... i was at the door step and there's this lil like balcony there, den the wind is like blowing sooo strongly.. ah.. feels real good... it makes me feel like all my stress and worries are blown off... haha....

tml starting school already.. wonder how i'll do this year.. i've forgotten lots of stuff, as u guys noe, i've not been studying... i'm like gonna have to start from scratch.. man.. tt sux... but, it's my fault for not studying haha.. but i'll do my best this year... wanna make my MI life a more fulfilling one compared to my primary and secondary school life... ha...

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.:50FirstDates:.

haha.. this is a really nice show man.. it's like sooo damn funny but... real sad story... was watching it at dec's house.. it's like the guy (henry) really loves lucy a lot... man.. it's true love... he does not mind making it a point everyday to record the previous day's happening and make it a lil greeting for lucy every morning.. the trouble he goes through everyday... soooo touching man...

it kinda still makes me confused.... i dunnoe wad i feel, how i feel... and i think, i dun feel... dun want to, try not to... God has definitely helped me (<---error, forgot to add in) get over this really bad habit of mine (which is a secret haha) and i am like sooo happy... i wanna start afresh... no more bad habits, no more past hurts.. no more nothing... juz like what meng fei prayed for me.. to continue with God where i left off... man.. i was sooo touched by tt prayer... so meaningful... thanks dude... my life whether i have someone to love and who loves me or not, doesn't really matter cos when i start thinking of it, i get really confuse, and i dunnoe what i want... i'll juz let God give me the perfect one...

seriously, tt show was sooo touching and nice, i'd like watch it a few more times if i had the dvd/vcd/tape/laser disc(what else ar?)... man... it's like how much i used to love her.. it's like.. no matter what obstacle, i'd do my best to continue... guess tt's why we lasted quite long.. she did her part too... i guess it's still my fault... i did not spend enough time with her...

if there's anybody just like lucy in the show, i dun mind trying to get her attention everyday and like make her love me again day after day.. man..i think it's really romantic.. i'd like do almost anything if i lived such a care free life... where studies, cca and everything else dun hinder me from spending time with her.. haha... i'm dreaming *snaps out of it* haha... ok... back to reality... (haha.. reminds me of tt eminem song 'lose urself') haha...

ha.. i guess tt's enuff for today.. though we did lots of stuff.. like i first time spend time with our region youth.. haha.. finally got myself a pair of levi's jeans... cool huh.. cant wait to collect it cos i altered it.. ha... was at JP and stuff.. but i dun want to make this entry too long so i'll stop here..